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Oops, I did it again...

Monday, August 22, 2016

Yep, I fell off the wagon. Nothing new here. It seems to be my jam.

The last time I was here I had just welcomed 2 cats and a dog into my home and it has taken me months to feel like I'm not losing my mind... myself.

I got on the scale and the news wasn't good. I'm really terrified that I'm going to drop dead at 40 from a massive heart attack. I'm so very aware with how much time I spend sitting. I need to STOP. And by stop I mean GO! MOVE! Do something!

I've started using a pedometer. It has given me a little motivation to beat my step count. I'm trying to realize walking the dog isn't a chore and it should be enjoyed by both of us. It's been easier than I anticipated. I am getting back on the LOW CARB wagon. I made a deliciously exquisite pizza from cauliflower last night and eating it felt good. I just need to stop slacking and get it together. I'm so frustrated with myself. I'm actually considering weight loss surgery, something I vowed I'd never do as surgery terrifies me and I saw my sister deal with a lot of complications and nearly dying after she had her surgery. My husband does not want me to get surgery either. I'd love to be thin and healthy but I feel like I need to do this the old fashioned way...but can I? Can I actually lose at least 100 lbs? I can't even get my life together long enough to lose 30 lbs. I feel like I hate myself and I need help but there is no help for me. I just need to do it already.

I'm making some promises to myself right now.

I will log in to Spark every day.
I will log every morsel of food that passes my lips.
I will drink an appropriate amount of water.
I will use my pedometer. I will walk twice a day. And if the dog can't walk for more than 15 minutes because she's just a pup, I will bring her home and continue my walk on my own.
I will use my xbox Kinect that has been collecting dust for years now and I will get moving with it.
I will aim to do yoga every day, even if just for 10 minutes because I really don't enjoy it. Or I don't think I do, because it's been so long.

This blog has no flow to it - it's just a jumble of words I guess, but it is for my own benefit this time. I just need to put it in writing so I can move forward and get somewhere.

I'm hungry and I'm unsure where to even begin now.
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  • JEM2929
    Thank you Ramona! I'm coming to check you out!
    1645 days ago
  • JEM2929
    Thank you everyone! I feel a lot better today. I stayed on track and I feel really good about it. I think I can do this. Thanks for the encouragement!
    1645 days ago
    This blog has flow, and even better than flow, it has a PLAN. You can do this.

    8 years ago I didn't think I could do this either, but two weeks ago I posted my progress pictures for almost 100 lbs. eliminated! If I can do this (with health issues, a deranged metabolism, and amidst several life crises), anyone can.

    If I may, I'd like to recommend a couple of resources:

    The Art & Science of Low-Carb Living by Phinney & Volek

    The Obesity Code by Dr. Jason Fung

    These books saved my life.

    ...and come participate on the Paleo team! We're great cheerleaders!
    1646 days ago
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    If you're frustrated hungry, get the biggest raw carrots you can and take your frustration out on them. Chew them and it can be helpful. I fight sinus headaches and they are helpful for some reason. I understand and do things you like, if you can.
    1646 days ago
  • no profile photo CD16989319
    We all "fall off the wagon". We have to remember to start over the next day. You can do this.
    1647 days ago
    Love animals myself!! Good for you
    1647 days ago
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