Wednesday, August 31, 2016
So, I went ahead and unhooked my new cpap machine and hooked my old one back up.
I have used it the last two nights.
Despite the fact that my doctor ordered the new one so that they could monitor it thru wifi, I did not bother to put it online until a few nights ago when I began having trouble with it.
The reason he changed my machine is that the old one was building pressure too fast and too often, I was constantly having to ramp it thru the night, waking me up.
So, other than having to do that several times at night, and when the pressure builds up, I start to get leaks under the bottom of my mask, I have slept ok with the old machine.
And I have no intentions of putting the other one back online.
I know this sounds ridiculous to some people, but to me its just a matter of privacy.
What will be next?
They can still download the card and get the results they need.
I go back to the doc on Friday and then take the new machine back to the medical supply to let them test it and find out why it is sucking and blowing pressure in and out so fast.
Other than that?
I had to go to the doc yesterday for a weight check, and according to her scale, as usual, I had gained 4 lbs.
However, according to my own scale, I am still even steven and the advice I am taking given by my cardiologist is to go by the scale you use most often and so that is what I choose to do.
I dont feel like I have gained, I have been trying really hard.
I do feel the old pangs of depression and self defeat trying to find an entrance into my mind and body.
I am really just getting tired of the daily struggle.
I will be going to the walking track here in about half an hour and I plan to add some time and distance today.
I have planned out my food for the day and will stick to it, and do this, day in and day out, to zero results.
While I know I am healthier overall for the effort.
Taking my vitamins, drinking my water, using my machine, to TRY to improve my sleep, ((although I do feel sleep deprived due to these cpap issues)) exercise, eating healthier. Taking my meds and sparking, holding myself accountable for my actions.
I know this is helping me, but it isnt really getting me the results I want or need.
I dont even bother changing my goals on sp anymore because nothing has changed in so long.
I am glued to this same spot.