This is getting serious. But will I?

After another month of not blogging, not weighing, not tracking, I am up four pounds. And now my knee is starting to hurt. I began walking a few miles every day with my dogs, something I was feeling great about, and now I think it was too much too soon, given the extra 40 pounds I am carrying around everywhere I go.

Breathe. Begin again.

I know how to do this. I KNOW how to do this. I have done it before. I want to do it now. I am worth more than the everyday physical pain and fatigue. I am worth more than the everyday shame of walking into my closet and knowing that nothing will fit. I am worth more than the momentary dulling of negative emotion I get when I throw food at panic, stress, loneliness and boredom.

Here are my priorities:

Log weight/food and blog every day
Eat only when I am hungry
Eliminate alcohol
Eliminate sugar
Eliminate gluten

I won't try it all at once. I will start with logging weight and food and eating when I am hungry. When I do the behavior for four days, I will reward myself with some non-food treat. Then will add the next behavior, and after another four days, the next.

I am worth more than what I have been giving myself.