Came home, cooking supper. Cleaned a little, very little.
Each day I ask myself, why? and yet I get up and go right back.
But the ball is rolling and its time to do what i knew weeks ago I needed to do.
I cant blame this entirely on one thing, but I know it is contributing....
I made a decision today and tonight I am going to tell the people I need to tell that it is time for me to start focusing on myself and my health.
It wasnt an easy decision in some ways but in others it was so so easy.
Tired, and back is aching, dreading so badly going to the heart doctor on Friday.
But hoping since my bp has been staying pretty good, I will get thru this appointment without having to undergo any invasive tests.
I think aging should happen in reverse like Benjamin Buttons!!!
Well, kinda, I mean, as young people in our teens and 20s, we party, we smoke, we drink, we do dangerous activities....By 30 most of us are married or settled down with kids and we want to set a better example.
On top of the smoking and drinking catching up to us alot faster.
By 40 we have started to see some aging, and our health issues creep in.....
I will be 50 in September and I feel relatively healthy.
I mean, other than being overweight and having bp issues.
And the aches and pains associated with being almost 50.....
Imagine, if we slowly aged in reverse and one day we are old and our sight is poor and we have lost our teeth and cant remember very well, and take a boat load of pills for this and that.....and one morning we wake up, with our teeth back, we can see, we can move better, we dont ache, and we have no lines or wrinkles......
but then again....you would have to go back to being a baby and pooping yourself.
I am rambling.
I just want to enjoy the rest of my life in relatively good health, no one knows what might happen to them.
But if you can and DO NOT prevent health issues, then who do you have to thank or blame??
I could get hit by a boulder flying off a mountain top, or a bear could attack me in the woods.
But if I know the bear is standing there and if I drive down a road that says danger blasting.....
Well, you get the picture.
Enjoy those evenings.....