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The big WHY of every breath I take

Tuesday, January 24, 2017

When life's storms hit, it is just my nature to pull up my big girl panties and face them head on from my knees. During the monsoon season, I know God has put a limit on the downpour - and it is easiest to trust Him at the beginning. Several simultaneous storms tend to make me weary, even as I confess His saving grace. But there is no where else for me to go; and I find my faith stronger as I have depended on His mercy and goodness. He is ever faithful.

This has made me think of my nutrition plan and my endless battle with Dr Pepper. At least four times in the past week, when I was desperate for stress relief, I denied myself that crutch. My goal is to accomplish my weight loss primarily through counting of calories, like JEANKNEE described in her blog. www.sparkpeople.com/mypa

The reason I have all this weight to lose is because I allow every little thing to distract me and before long, I am light years away from the plan I was working. Why did I have to be so old before "I get it"? Life is always gonna have bumps. Lately, my days have had dozens of bumps. I got knocked off course Jan 9 and made the conscious choice to reboot Jan 16. I'm grateful that I only lost a week - historically it is weeks before I stop the slide.

Today I have a new perspective. I don't dwell on posts or people full of negativity whining about their lack of success. I can't risk their attitude contaminating me - I only need to surround myself with good attitudes and values. There are enough unwelcome issues in my life without leaving the door open for more. Aren't the best Spark blogs written by members who are champions in their goals and dreams? Who wants to hang around my blog when I just keep saying - 'well, back on program'? For my own sake, it is good I try again, but I want to inspire others who watched me NEVER GIVE UP. It isn't about the whats and whys of my failures, but the overcoming of them.

As I write this, I am watching the rebroadcast of the 2016 Rock and Roll Hall of Fame Induction Ceremony; Chicago is accepting their award and their hit "Feelin' Stronger Everyday" is playing. Every day that I stay on my nutrition plan, I get stronger. I allow any food as long as I log it in my tracker - except Dr Pepper. For now. There will be a time when I am so disciplined I can have one and stop there, but I know myself and now is not that time.

My big WHY is my husband, only five years my senior. Twelve months ago, we were bike riding 150+ miles each month in these hills; that ended by September when he became fatigued and lethargic. We have just discovered his medical needs; thankfully his afflictions have treatment programs, but with all illness, it will take him a while to recover. Only the Almighty knows if he will get back on the bike, but in these past months I have come to realize his dependence on me, and the increase in my responsibilities. He has always been a phenomenal husband in helping me - I never realized how much he did help until he was unable to. Now, as much as ever, is my health a priority. If I am not healthy, it hurts his care. Knowing how much my husband needs my help, empowers me to do the things I need to do: say no to DP, track my food everyday, and get my fitness in - all vital to keeping me focused on wellness. I will get stronger each day. And I hope to inspire anyone who may be watching.

God Bless You.

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    I agree with BetzyGirl - you are an inspiration. I'm so proud of you for turning to God in your storms instead of Dr. Pepper. You are right, you are getting stronger every day! You, your DH, and Josh are in my prayers daily.
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    Comment edited on: 3/6/2017 1:25:11 AM
    That is Goodness LR! You and your family are in my prayers!
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    1528 days ago
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    Excellent blog !!
    1538 days ago
    You are on FIRE girlfriend!! emoticon I love you go gettum attitude!! emoticon

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    1539 days ago
    Excellent blog!! You are an inspiration to me, and I am happy to be sharing this part of your journey with you! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1539 days ago
    Amen, sistah! You've got this!
    1539 days ago
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