I'm Giving Up! (Sort of)
Thursday, May 04, 2017
Yesterday, I decided to give up! No, not on the healthy lifestyle, but the idea that I have to keep stumbling along to the end goal.
There are little goals along the way that build on the final goal becoming permanent and not just a dream that evaporates immediately after (or during) the celebrating of reaching the ultimate goal. I know that. I've known it all along, but for some reason, I got caught up with that ultimate and final goal and didn't bother looking at all the little goals, like stepping stones, that I learned and continue to learn about now. I know there is going to be more learning and self-discoveries in the future.
Yesterday, as I looked at my inner-self, I thought, "You still haven't learned to leave foods that you know are unhealthy (for me) out of the lifestyle. Sure, pizza could be healthy in a couple of aspects (for me), like the meat and cheese, but I would be smarter to pull that stuff off the bread platform it sits on - well, I can't do that yet, maybe someday, I could pull all the "good" stuff off and lay it on a Romaine lettuce leaf and eat it, but I've always thought I'd rather have my salad in a bowl, not on my pizza.
Might be easier to just not eat pizza. There are several things I need to reconsider on this line, so I decided to develop something that I can go back to and look at. How about a personal journal? Yea - I've tried that before and never got very far. I can be so inconsistent in some things.
But today, I am more determined than before. I've put together some ideas I'm working on to be more aware of the small stepping stone and utilizing them to reach that ultimate goal of mine in the future. It might take me awhile, but the more I work at it, the better I'll become and I'll reach that goal in the end.