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Saturday, June 03, 2017

My beautiful sister as I would like to remember her

My heart is broken, I am living in an irreconcilable nightmare of why and what if. Today it's my birthday (61) but it has been one of the most miserable days : my only sister, one year younger, my best friend, threw herself off the roof of the block of units where she lived, in Cyprus and ended her life. She had some health issues and had been fighting depression, the last time I spoke to her on Tuesday night she sounded so much better, and then this! WHY?
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  • SUNNY112358
    Dear Leni
    I am so sorry for your loss. I have been through post-partum depression myself and this was something I had considered doing too, so I can understand your sister. She is at peace now. You must not blame yourself.
    I am sorry I did not see this sooner.
    Zoi se sas.
    Hugs and prayers.
    1332 days ago
    So sorry for your loss. Zoi se sas.
    1396 days ago
  • TANYA168
    I am very sorry to hear this and to feel the pain you are going through. To have those unanswered questions....My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family and friends during this time. Thinking of you.


    1397 days ago
    Words cannot convey enough sorrow. I cry for you in my heart. You may never be able to comprehend "why" but your sister must have been in so much pain that she felt this was "best" for her. There is no understanding of suicide. I am so sorry for your loss and pain.
    1397 days ago
    So very sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my Prayers.
    1398 days ago
  • CLARE1952
    A big hug to you. Her beauty shines through in the photo. The depression did it to her. It warps thinking. I hope you can feel the support of us in your online community as you work through this. With love
    1409 days ago
  • _LINDA
    She was lovely and looked so happy in that photo. That is the way she was and is to be remembered. The pain and darkness experienced by someone who is depressed cannot be imagined by one unless they have experienced it themselves. Even when it seems their life is going so well this insidious illness can strike. So heartbreakingly sad and a tragic loss of life :-((
    Thoughts, prayers and comforting hugs sending your way.
    1409 days ago
    emoticon Praying for you and the others this affects.
    1410 days ago
    I gasped when I read this. Oh, if people only realized the pain they would leave behind when they commit suicide, but their minds are bombarded by the devil's lies and deceit. You, my sweet friend, have been robbed, too. Prayers are going your way.
    1410 days ago
    Oh my god. Sometimes there are no whys. Just the pain of the one who takes his life awy. Sometimes they feel they're a burden, or that the pain is so hard. think that she decided this, it was not your fault or hers. She'sā€‹ in peace now.
    1410 days ago
  • DYANNE4293
    I'm so sorry for your loss.
    1410 days ago
    I am so sorry for your lost, but JESUS CHRIST is always there for you to lean on. When you feel there's no answer trun to HIS word the Bible. The LORD bless you.
    1410 days ago
    Oh! No!!! I am so sorry to hear of the tragic loss. At a time like this, no words can take away the pain you feel. Just know that you are surrounded by loving thoughts and prayers.
    1410 days ago
    šŸ˜¢ I am so sorry to about the loss of your sister. It's always so hard when we lose loved ones but, even more so when they take their own life and leave loved ones with so many questions. Your in my prayers.
    1410 days ago
    So sorry for you take care of yourself
    1410 days ago
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