Day 7 - Push On Thru and Setting Some Goals
Tuesday, August 08, 2017
Working Thru the Pain...
Yesterday and today have been more or less good days. Been a bit more active the last couple days, and even though I was having issues with the allergies and with my ankle, I managed to accomplish the things I wanted to do, such as mowing the lawn, and walking farther and longer before needing to stop. Suz has taken to parking further out in the parking lot when we go out shopping just to provide me with opportunities to work out. Some days, I do appreciate it, yet others…
It is not so much that I don't want to walk that far, especially as nice as the weather has been lately. No, more than anything it is the pain in my right ankle. I have had it checked by the doctor a number of times, but there is no damage to the foot, no broken bones nor stress fractures, so not only am I at a loss to explain it, so is the doctor. Somedays lotioning my foot seems to help, so I am wondering about a build up of skin/calluses on my foot, but have yet to prove this or to find anything online that might provide some insight and better yet, a solution.
At this point, I am just forcing myself to work through the pain and push thru. The weigh will not go away if I give up every time something hurts or is uncomfortable. Granted, I may be a bit irritable as I am working through things, or immediately after. Of late, other than the typical motivations (Andrea, SuzAnne), when I've felt like I was ready to give up, I've asked myself "What is going to hurt worse--the pain in the ankle and discomfort breathing, or the incision when they cut you open because you didn't take care of yourself and had a heart attack.
Amazing what a motivator that can be - I have never been cut open or had surgery, and would prefer to keep it that way as much as possible, thank you very much.
While things have been going better with respect to hitting my numbers (which I am tracking along with exercise via Sparkpeople), I feel like I am wandering through a forest looking for a trail to lead me where I wish to go; simply meandering and not really moving very quickly or directly towards my goal. Kind of like Doctor Who said - I'm heading home, the long way around.
I know where I would like to end up weight-wise; 190 or so would be great, but no more than say 215. I have that long term goal (hopefully not too long), but it is the shorter goals I am having difficulty in figuring out. What is a reasonable goal for say 90 days? 180 days? I've seen the suggestions that you should reward yourself upon reaching a goal, but what is a realistic goal? I have set up goals in the past with respect to the diet, but for one reason or another, what seemed reasonable in the beginning became unattainable once I started putting forth the work. I want to lose the weight and keep it off. I want to not be the 'Plus size Dad' when my daughter graduates in May. Yes, it would be great to pull an 'Extreme Weight Loss' type of results by the time she graduates, but not really realistic.
Guess that is something I'm just going to need to figure out...just frustrating as hell at times as it seems there is nothing out there to provide some help in making an informed decision.