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Thursday, August 10, 2017
I added this after----(((I keep forgetting that some people dont follow me on here and that they dont realize that over the last 5 years, I have already lost 65 lbs, but I cant get beyond this wall.
I am just stuck here. Like Tom Hanks on Castaway.
I am stuck, to forever live in this 2 lb weight vortex until my death!!
I dont weigh every day, I do weigh every week, I skip a week, I gain, I stay the same, I never lose.
And in the event by some random miracle that the miracle fairy spilled while flying over my house, I should lose a pound, you can bet it will be come back in the next week!
I get no where, quicksand is my new home!!)))
Even Steven snuck into my bathroom and played a trick on my bathroom scale, and on me!!
I waited two weeks to get on the scale again.
After my last weigh in and no loss or gain, I decided to give the scale a break and just focus on working on myself, walking, eating right.
All week I have been SEEING and FEELING the changes.
I could just tell----sitting in a tub soaking after a long walk on Tuesday----I could see the difference in my body.
Getting dressed in front of the mirror, I could see the contours of my waist.
I could feel the lighter feel in my walk.
I can reach around my back easier and almost get my hand all the way around to the other side.
But the scale says wooahhh take a step back there lady!!
A ONE POUND GAIN!!!?????!!!!
This is impossible.
This has to be a mistake.
I had just set my mind that I was going to accept whatever the scale said because I am seeing and feeling the changes and I know what I have eaten, what I have cut, how much water, walk, sleep, vitamins, workout I have had!!
So, what people, what, tell me what is the deal with this???
Yes, I am going to focus on the good, but its really hard to do when your END GOAL is weight loss.
I was sure I would see at the very least a 2 lb loss, I mean its been two frickingly wickedly weeks!!!
I should see a 4 lb loss just to be honest.
I know we have all said it and suspected it, but I really do believe my scale is messed up.
It stays in a 1 to 2 lb number.
I am going to buy a new scale.
I have had this one about 8 years or so and it is a digital scale, so maybe its......
Oh, who am I kidding!!!
It isnt the scale at all. I am just bound to live my life at this weight.
I cannot get below it no matter what I do.
It really does make one feel defeated. It makes me want to just go on a binger and eat all the good stuff I have not eaten in months. I have stayed true to my plan and my plan, my scale and my self fails me.