Thursday, October 12, 2017
What is it about me that feels I have to hurry his weight loss? This frantic impatience gnaws at me daily...my progress seems too slow. But this is how I get myself in trouble. It's that lingering part of me which feels like this way of eating (low carb) and fitness is just a means to an end. That part in the back of my brain which still believes I can lose this weight and life can go back to normal...I can live the way I once did and my actions won't have consequences. But that's how I *did* live pre weight gain. Eating and drinking whatever I wanted, vegging out in front of the tv or computer, allowing life trials to cripple me. I can't live like that ever again.
No. This has to be forever. Weight loss will come with consistency, whatever pace it chooses. What I am doing now is learning new life skills, new habits I will continue the rest of my life. I need to accept this as my new normal, and embrace the evolution of my body as it naturally changes with me. One day at a time!