October 24, 2017 rough patch
Tuesday, October 24, 2017
Struggling. Eating is off the rails. I know I need to get back to the right side but things keep pulling me left. It's emotional being not in control of what's bothering me and being forced to just stand by. In a nutshell, being a parent to an adult child making decisions that could end bad is harder than any other parenting I've done. The adult child ( I use the term child because he's mine and at a loss for a better term and really don't want preached at that he's no longer a child), is of age...in his 20s. And I know he has to figure things out himself and I can't tell him what to do, he seems to like to argue. When I won't argue he gets worse. I know it's his age for the most part. I'm in a new type of mothering roll that's just upsetting me a lot. I know it's normal for your kids to wonder away from how you brought them up, and that's ok as long as it's not dangerous or illegal. He's just making choices that could be better. His father and I don't agree with. I know we don't need to agree. He's been with a girl, almost a year now that we see is influencing him. And not in a good way. Manipulative ways that aren't right. His dad and I have voiced our concerns in a nonconfrontational way. And he, our son, hopefully will come to his senses sooner rather than later. Until then, as his folks, we will keep our eyes open.
Sigh~tmi I know. And I really try to not let it bother me. But when I do that I eat all the wrong things. I know I need to get on the right track, cuz it's getting worse. Hubby wants on the right
track too. Saying and doing are completely different. I'm gonna discuss recommitting to eating right again tonight with him. Tell him I need his strength more to help me up over this wall. I'm really having a tough time. I have no friends or relatives that can relate.