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Trying to turn my life around

Wednesday, November 01, 2017

I've been spiraling into a depression this year. Between work, my relationship, drugs/alcohol, and my health, I've been on a steady decline. I'm a smart girl, but I haven't been making the smartest decisions lately.

I'm learning a lot about myself and life in general. I guess I'm learning some pretty tough life lessons at the moment, about letting go and starting over. I saw my therapist yesterday for the first time in almost 2 months, she opened my eyes to a lot of things, and validated things I had started realizing on my own. I've really gone down a rabbit hole this year and I've hit a point where I have to do something about my life and my choices.

Within the past week I ended a relationship... it was not healthy for me. I still love him and miss him a lot, but he is not for me and I'm trying to be strong.

This past weekend I reconnected with some friends and family, got a lot of cleaning done, and actually went to the gym. I went to the gym again yesterday, and am going to try to go again today. I feel really low about life right now, but I hope I can keep going to the gym and make that some type of habit. I know its not good to do everything at once and go in baby steps, but right now i'm just doing anything that will keep my mind off the guy I was seeing and turn my life around
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  • MAINSTREETGAL
    Dealing with a mental health illness is so very difficult but admitting you have it is the the most effective way to get better. That and getting the professional help you need. Looks like you are right in track. I hope you are feeling better soon!
    809 days ago
  • DRBARNETT
    Stay strong and focus on YOURSELF
    809 days ago
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