Trying to turn my life around
Wednesday, November 01, 2017
I've been spiraling into a depression this year. Between work, my relationship, drugs/alcohol, and my health, I've been on a steady decline. I'm a smart girl, but I haven't been making the smartest decisions lately.
I'm learning a lot about myself and life in general. I guess I'm learning some pretty tough life lessons at the moment, about letting go and starting over. I saw my therapist yesterday for the first time in almost 2 months, she opened my eyes to a lot of things, and validated things I had started realizing on my own. I've really gone down a rabbit hole this year and I've hit a point where I have to do something about my life and my choices.
Within the past week I ended a relationship... it was not healthy for me. I still love him and miss him a lot, but he is not for me and I'm trying to be strong.
This past weekend I reconnected with some friends and family, got a lot of cleaning done, and actually went to the gym. I went to the gym again yesterday, and am going to try to go again today. I feel really low about life right now, but I hope I can keep going to the gym and make that some type of habit. I know its not good to do everything at once and go in baby steps, but right now i'm just doing anything that will keep my mind off the guy I was seeing and turn my life around