Day 1 - Part 2 (7 years later....)
Tuesday, November 28, 2017
Why am I doing this? Why am I making these changes? I feel sluggish, fat and tired all of the time. My stomach hurts – my boobs hurt – all of the time. I get winded just walking up the stairs and down the hall to my office. I have gained 25 pounds in the past year, and I do not like the huge bulge of fat that is around my mid-section or how fat my face and neck have become. My anxiety is through the roof, and I have become alcohol dependent in order to cope. I’m afraid that if I continue this way, I will become an addict. My daughter calls me fat, and while they won’t admit it, I think my kids are ashamed of how I look. I’m ashamed of how I look and feel. I’m a newlywed, and I do not feel sexy around my husband. I hate to look at pictures of myself, and I hate to go clothes shopping. Most importantly, if I don’t start making changes now, I will not live to see my future grandchildren grow up.
I've tried going down this road in the past, and while it works for awhile, I always seem to go back to bad habits. 3 years ago I power walked a half marathon. Now I can barely walk down the road. Something has to give....something has to change. And that time is now!