Tuesday, November 28, 2017
I have fallen off the wagon again. After being gone from home a lot I allowed myself to not track and the lbs started coming back on. I was thrilled to have lost 12 lbs with my last attempt and now have plastered that back on. I know if I don't work at tracking I will only just continue to gain. I find it frustrating to know I can never eat what I consider normal and lose. I don't like how my body feels, I don't like how those rolls of fat feel. I am the only one who can make that change and with God walking this path with me yet again I can do it. I need to get ingrained it my head that when I take those cheats, no matter how small, it can send me off to a spiral that I have trouble getting under control. My husband and I will be going to Cancun for a week for our 40th anniversary in 20 days. I want to really work hard and lose as much as I can. I would love to stay in better control at the resort, but that is not my focus right now. I have a total of 23 lbs I want to lose and that is my 3-4 month goal. So... Today is day 2 of my tracking and making good choices. I can do it, but not by myself. I am doing this with the support of God. I need to listen to his voice when he says I don't need that cookie, or what ever and not let the devil win. My body is made by God and I need to take care of it.