Definition of Defeat
Friday, December 01, 2017
Today I feel defeated and so frustrated. I want to be all excited and come on here and say I have lost so much weight and feel great, but my greatest obstacle is myself. I want to be thin, but putting forth the effort is so hard. I am tired all the time, I feel like my body simply loathes me, it betrays my will and I am overwhelmed with self pity, self loathing and self flagellation. I am so tired of this endless cycle, but I can't seem to break free. I have diabetes now, how far will it go before it is too late to turn back? Feeling sad and broken today.