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Re-evaluating my "Whys"

Tuesday, December 19, 2017

I have realized that I've completely lost motivation the last four days or so. Four days isn't a lot, as long as I take immediate control of the situation and get back on track before I make too many decisions that I regret. I'm down almost 30 lbs this time around, and I want to keep going.

With that being said, I think it's a good time to re-evaluate why I'm doing this (again...I lost a significant amount of weight several years ago but regretfully gained it back).

Obviously I want the generics: to feel healthy, look good in clothes, feel comfortable in my own skin, etc. I think those are pretty basic whys for most of us, and they will likely always be a big part of why I want to lose this weight.

I will be carrying a child sooner rather than later. I will not be at my goal weight when this happens. In fact, I will most likely still be considered obese. I spoke with my doctor and she said my vitals are great and since I'm turning 34 in a few days, she'd recommend that we have a baby sooner rather than later. What I eat, and how I treat my body, will have a direct impact on the health, and future, of my child. We don't have any children yet, so this fact is really hitting me hard. If I eat junk, I typically feel like crap and then regret it. It's bad enough that I put my own body through that, but to put my baby through that? No. Will I occasionally splurge and enjoy pizza and chocolate? OF COURSE! I recognize that these foods, when consumed sparingly, won't cause any damage.

So, my main "why" right now is to prep my body for having a healthy child. I know a lot of people here can empathize with this, but I tend to put everyone else's health and well-being above my own. I know that I need healthy fuel, and give that to myself most of the time, but there are other times when I simply don't care. I'll put things in my body that I know aren't good for me. Now that I am focused on how my body will impact my future child, it gives me a different kind of motivation. Does that make sense?

Exercise has never been an issue for me. I'm obsessed with working out and will continue to do so. My main focus will be on my nutrition and really taking the time to analyze what I'm eating. I already eat a mostly organic diet, so I think I'm a step ahead of the game :)

Thanks for reading this rambling blog. My focus is a little off but I'm going to go to bed with a much clearer picture of my goals and how I'll achieve them: one meal at a time.
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