Day 4 / 112
Wednesday, December 20, 2017
It is so good to sleep in your own bed. Yes, I was awoken by my phone, but I still got a pretty decent sleep. I'm starting my day with my protein shake and a multivitamin.
I've been thinking a lot about this journey. I know we all approach weight loss from different angles with different belief systems, so if this doesn't fit you, leave it. I don't mean to offend anyone.
There are many people who, I believe, try to be supportive, but completely miss the mark. This isn't a diet. Weight loss is a life style change. Don't ask how the diet is going or if I'm still dieting or anything like that. Am I alive? Ok, then I'm trying to be the best that I can be, every day. And that covers all aspects of my life. I'm trying to be a better business owner, a better human, a better version of myself. With that being said- this is a lifestyle change!!! I don't want to live in a world where I don't eat chocolate or where I can't have a slice of pizza. Treating myself is not a failure. Managing my day with curveballs thrown in is not a failure. Allowing imperfection is not a failure. I don't really need "you can do better tomorrow!" or "tomorrow is a new day" because you're saying here, really, is that today was a F up. Maybe it wasn't. Maybe today was the best day that today could have been. And maybe tomorrow will be better. Maybe it wont!! Maybe it will have its own set of circumstances that screw things up. I remember a few years ago maybe- maybe not that long ago- I had been eating well and making really good choices. And then my grandpa was in the hospital. I was at the hospital all day- and not eating anything because there weren't good choices. Finally, night time was upon us and I was still hungry and still not going anywhere. I had dinner out of a vending machine. Yeah- chips and soda. That's what it was. Could I have gone home to eat? Sure. I wasn't going to though. I needed to be at the hospital, and my grandpa is more important than my eating habits, so I had chips and soda that day for dinner, and it was not a failure.
I'm taking every step as just that- a step. I can't change my world overnight. I've tried before and it only last a month or two before everything comes crashing down. I am attempting to change habits that I've had for a lifetime, and it will take time. I will proceed with love and acceptance towards myself and I will get there. Hopefully, once I arrive, I will have built up the skill set that I need to maintain it!!
Don't think of your cookie or chocolate bar as a failure. We're humans and we're on a journey! Ok, I'm going to go clean, but I'll see you again soon!!!