Well, Sparklers … I had to get caught up on allll my reading once again. Much like staying on track … if you don’t tend to it daily, things get out of hand.
We successfully surprised my mom for her 80th birthday … in fact we made her cry. This never, ever happens. But I successfully made her cry again when we had a … disagreement over repeatedly trying to force feed me.
Now don’t get me wrong. I have gained about a million pounds since leaving home December 15th. What with vacation mentality, Christmas and parties, bronchitis and pneumonia, being hospitalized, the passing of BFF’s hubby, falling and busting up my knee and shoulder and being laid up for two days, eating out which we never do, eating what everyone else is eating, and eating foods that are only available this time of year and only in Texas!!!
I feel like a slug. I am bloated, inflammation has moved in to stay, I ache all over, my clothes are cutting me in half … AND I made my mom cry, again.
She has no idea how to relate to me. NONE.
Food is love here in the south.
She loves me … but only knows how to show that through FOOD.
Each meal has either been stressful or a confrontation. Today … it was all out war. So, hubby and I packed up and went back to the hotel. Tomorrow is our last day here … we start the journey home. There will be more tears.
As I sort out my relationship with my surviving parent … I am also sorting out my relationship with food. I have more recycled pounds to lose … lots more. And then the remaining pounds to reach my goal.
I’m sure there’s gonna be some more tears.
*Read my reasons for chunking alllll these pounds. Why did you start allll this??
*Planned and ate s-l-o-w-l-y and mindfully … huh, who ME???
*Stop when you are physically full … what is full. My full meter is broken.
*Exercise … Arrrrgh, I gotta get moving again.
*Not my food. Oh, well kiddo!
My arms won’t look smaller … just coz I cover them up. ~Kenlie@alltheweigh
Here’s to … LIFE … uncovered.