Trying to focus on the silver lining
Saturday, March 10, 2018
The silver lining is, we caught it early, got it fixed, and there is no permanent damage. Gotta keep focused on that. I'm just so tired though. With the weight of worry, and the emotional fatigue of trying to keep someone who is extremely active, down on the couch so there won't be a need for a 911 call, not to mention the extra physical labor of getting everything done NOW is really taking its toll. Every time he does something he isn't suppose to do, I get another anxiety attack. Hoping this out pour will help with that. I need some time alone to process everything, but that isn't possible because I have to watch him like a hawk. It's almost to the point of not being able to pee because he will do something just to see if what the doctors have told him is true. He's not freakin superman! Why is that so difficult for him to understand? I don't know how people do this for the long term. It's only been 2 days. Only 11 more to go.