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I felt like I could do it on my own...

Tuesday, April 17, 2018

I felt I could do it on my own – after 10 years, you’d think I knew better. But I can’t & anyway, I know I’m stronger with all of you by my side. What happened to me, you wonder?

I lost myself in the last couple of weeks; I met a guy who said ‘I love you’ but never had any intention of actually loving me. I let him use me because I thought we had a fair bargain when clearly, it was a one-sided one. Last Wednesday, I couldn’t take it anymore and I told him I was leaving (we had been trying to live together in his apartment) & he was shocked (but relieved, I figured it after). I guess he hadn’t noticed all my stuff missing… So I left his place, crying, the words ‘He let me go’ throbbing in my head and never looked back.

Also, I’m not proud to report that I spent the last couple of days eating my weight in chips & chocolate. My face is breaking with pimples (ok, only some on the forehead... but I don’t have pimples usually..!) and my psoriasis is itching like crazy. I really need to learn to cope with my feelings without stuffing my face…

Anyway, I took the day off yesterday, cleaned my place (my ex moved out last week and the place was a mess!) & got organized.

I got a new job – I now work for the government with a good salary and good conditions. I am moving into a smaller apartment (and one I can afford on my own) in July. As I said, my ex moved out at the beginning of April (he’ll keep paying the rent though as our agreement says) so I am living on my own – again. I am not unhappy to live by myself or to have broken up with him & after the last fiasco, I am not ready to get involved but… I feel a bit lonely and sad.

I’ll take the time to look you up my friends, this week. See where you are at.

Thank you for your time,
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    emoticon I've been there as well I can relate took me decades to realize that I can live on my own. It just takes time emoticon emoticon
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    1147 days ago
    Never settle my friend !!!! Congratulations on your new job, slowly but surely you will get back into it, little steps add up. Take care. emoticon
    1151 days ago
  • ALOFA0509
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    You got this sista friend!! Were here Cheering 4 You emoticon emoticon

    I'm always happy to see you my friend emoticon emoticon emoticon

    1152 days ago
  • BJAEGER307
    Glad to see you back Isabelle! Sorry to read about your relationship. Things happened for a reason, and you will find the purpose of all this in time. Take time to heal yourself and let it get better for yourself. Concentrate on you because you so deserve it.

    So happy to read you got a new job and one that sounds like you truly like it. That is so wonderful. Also you will have the opportunity to move into a new place. One you can just make your own.

    Get back to eating your Whole30 once again. It should clear up the medical problems you are now experiencing. You know what the cause it and you know you cleared it up before. Now is the time to just focus on being healthy. Things will change for you, just you wait and see.

    Take care.
    1152 days ago
    Glad you're back Isabelle!! We have all been there in one fashion or another - you ARE NOT alone and you ARE worth it!!! emoticon
    1152 days ago
  • SUSANM18
    Well, there's been a lot of up and a lot of down. Hope things stay on even keel now. Glad you came back to what you know works. Better days are ahead and you deserve them. Susan
    1152 days ago
    I am glad you are back! Time to pick up the pieces and move on emoticon , get rid of what holds you back. And huge congrats on your new job!
    1152 days ago
    I'm rooting for you, Isabelle!
    1152 days ago
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