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Just tired

Wednesday, April 18, 2018

I am just tired. Physically and emotionally. I am feeling negative and can't seem to get into a groove of any sort. I have contemplated signing up for Jenny Craig or Nutrisystem so I have some direction--but good grief the food is expensive! I still have to cook for my family and there is this deep part of me that knows this can be done with healthy eating and exercise. I do great with the healthy eating for breakfast, snacks, lunch (everything I do or take to work), but come 4 pm I am just done. And I know this is my difficult/trigger time. I know I need to make a different habit for this time of day. But then the tired hits. I am super motivated to get a workout in at about 1 or 2 pm. I am even motivated to get up and do it before work at about 10 pm. But getting up at 4:30 so that I have time to workout and get to work on time--not so motivated. I love SparkPeople, I even loved weight watchers--but I just feel aimless. I am reading articles, I've read more than my fair share of "getting healthy" books--still don't feel the focus I need.

Feel a bit like a Debbie Downer--but I need to get this all out. I know that I need to substitute my normal tired routine right after work for my exercise routine. Even when my kids are in sports--I can fit in a workout before games. I know the more fit I become the less tired I will be. I recently spent a good chunk of change on a nice elliptical and completely rearranged the living room space to accommodate it. I have a Beach Body on Demand membership, resistance bands, hand weights, kettle balls, yoga mat, DVDs. I have the money and time to buy healthy food. Its all there and available to me. I have the tools, I have the knowledge. So why can't I seem to do this? I am motivated, I'm a self-starter. Am I busy? Yes. I have 5 kids, a full-time job with some evening work, I'm a college student taking a big course load to get finished, and my husband travels out of state a lot. But are other people just as busy or busier? Yes. Are they making this work? Yes. I just want to feel in control and I want to be fit and healthy. Skinny? No. I just want to have working out part of my daily routine that I look forward to and that I can use to help reduce stress. Right now exercise is hard--I'm 150 pounds overweight, so it isn't easy, no matter what type of workout I choose. I have issues controlling food impulses--I generally give into cravings, even though I am telling myself to replace or distract or do anything else.

But I will keep on going and keep on delving into what is behind all of this. This week I am going to try and get to bed a little earlier and change up my after work routine. Start focusing on what I AM doing instead of what I AM NOT doing.
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    I have to admit i read this a few hours ago, and did not want to post some glib remark ... Like "You can do it" ........ I thought and thought and then on the Small goals and commitment team, GMADONNA posted a message earlier that i think just fits!
    Set a small goal .......... for example set yourself to "Lose 2# a week ....... Pick your day but don't put it off ........ Weigh tomorrow morning first off ........ write it down and then don't let anything stop you from that goal of 2# ........ Once you get your first Victory, it is going to help energize you ........ (I know) .....
    NOW THEN ....... when you read her post also read her "Inspirations" she put into that thread on the team.
    Sparks has all to offer and we absolutely can come out a winner and never have to spend a dime unlike WW, or Jennie Craig ........... and all the others. The program does work when people stay
    1. Focused.
    2. Committed
    3. Have a plan of action.

    Also you identified a trigger end of day where you feel a slump coming on and will power waning.
    So you want to come up with a plan to have something that will not cost you ........ Up your water intake
    and maybe add a few nuts with a piece of fruit.
    and for exercise ........... Do whatever you love.
    And sometimes i actually tell myself IF i am not feeling motivated .......
    OH WELL .......... You may not always like or enjoy making the bed or washing dishes but the fact
    remains, they need to be done everyday regardless. ...... And there are times we need to talk to that
    inner voice and get firm ........ Like parent to child.
    So go read her comment and let me know what you think.
    Make your health a #1 Priority.

    649 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/18/2018 7:50:04 PM
    I hope you find some kind of workout that you enjoy doing. I'm on the struggle bus currently on finding a good routine. Good luck & keep pushing!
    649 days ago
  • COOP9002
    Hope you are able to find the plan that you can enjoy. Blessings on your journey.
    649 days ago
    Great attitude my friend! You have a full plate but you will crush this goal
    649 days ago
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