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Monday 7th...

Monday, May 07, 2018

Kind of a day 1...for this new focus....

Rough day with DH...he just was not in a good place. Although he does not say a lot or even do much, there are these waves that eminate off of him of massive ??? discontent? I don't know the right word to describe it..but it is like walking thru a nasty fog that drains your mood and energy. Talking to his brother once years ago..and he said that has always been . Very strong vibes that affect everyone close to him. Yuck! Not a happy thing..but so tis!!

Then out of the blue DH says..you wanna go eat? Oh those magick words again!!
However..I ordered a buffalo chicken salad...and ate only half!! Yeah me!!

I am still just feeling off balance and not settled in my spirit. The only thing I can think of to do is meditate ..did that ... emoticon Now am thinking to read a bit..go to a peaceful place in my mind and let that calm the winds that are stirring . I guess pay back in a way..as a kid I sure kept my folks stirred up and there was little peace to be found around this lil whirlwind of a person. Now I am ready for calm to be a large part of my life.

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  • DIANEDOESSMILES
    Hugs Katie,,,,I'd have all the nursing homes numbers on speed dial!!! Well likely. We never know what we'd do unless we are in the situation and no 2 are ever the same.


    586 days ago
  • LIVINTODAY
    I'm so sorry that your DH is not in a good place. Even if this is something that has always happened periodically in his life, the Alzheimer's may make it more difficult for him to break out of it or explain what is happening.

    Take care of yourself, Katie. My mother kept my father at home all through the Alzheimer's years but she was very aware that friends who were caregivers reached a point where the Alzheimer's caused their loved one to be impossible...sometimes even violent. She once promised me that she would not keep him home if that happened. As it was, my father became more childlike as the Alzheimers went on, quite gentle and even docile which was NOT his normal personality. I hope this mood has passed but if it becomes entrenched you both may need help.

    Actually it is pretty neat that he came up with "you wanna go eat"! I think that was a real effort on his part to reconnect.
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    586 days ago
  • COOLMAMA11
    Life sure can send us some Zingers, I know that from personal experience, all you can do is take a deep breath, find something to quiet your mind, and hope things settle down for a while. I always lost myself in manual labor, for some reason I go into a zone of quiet when I work hard.
    586 days ago
  • LUCYCAN7
    emoticon Dear one,life can be so hard on us
    sometimes! emoticon
    586 days ago
  • CHERIRIDDELL
    Hugs for you.Trapped in your mind has to be hard.
    586 days ago
  • DETERMINEDJANET
    emoticon coming your way Katie!
    587 days ago
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    587 days ago
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