I sometimes wonder..

I sometimes wonder what my house will look like when I am no longer here. ( I have cancer )
We have tried to declutter, but the DH is more interested in the garden and lawn than what has to be taken care of inside My energy level isn't great and I have physical limitations. Even opening a window puts a strain on my stoma.

There are 3 pieces of exercise equipment in the LR and 1 in the DR. A cart used to transport heavy items is in the foyer. Several items are stacked behind the sofa, which is part of a walkway. The bedroom he uses has stuff stacked on a table instead of in a closet. Lamp shade is on top of that and not on the lamp. The back bedroom is a mess also, including a new toilet for the 2nd bathroom He finally loaded the dishwasher, as the counter was getting full.

He's supposed to be learning how to take care of the mail, filing, bill paying, stuff that needs to be done throughout the year, quarterly stuff and annual stuff. Why do these things always fall on one spouse and not a shared responsibility?

Excuses I hear are, when it gets too cold or too hot out, when we get a rainy day. I have too many projects (painting the wire fence to keep rabbits out of the garden). If I go before he's fully trained he will have a lot of frustration in addition to grief.

Been trying to do my part getting file drawers organized, including a list of contents so he can find things easily. Same thing with the bookmarks on the computer. Been purging stuff I've put on the computer also. Was only of interest to me.

I could just say the heck with it and let him figure it out, but that would be frustrating for a 79 year old. I've always been there, done that for all our important financial and other paperwork.

Life will go on.