Long time in coming
Monday, July 09, 2018
Hi! Yes its been a long time since we last met. Theres much to catch you up on. Firstly, I'd like to apologize to anybody who tried to email me. I never seemed to have gotten your emails unless they went into my spam folder without my knowledge. Anyway, not sure where I left off in my life when I left spark a few years ago but alots happend since then. Im finding myself back where I started from in my weight 183. I had managed to get down to 168 and then since being put back on bc pills, its increased once again. My thyroid was killed, my gallbladder came out and now I may be facing a hysterectomy sometime in my future along with the chances of having breast cancer. My mom has recently undergone a double mastectomy because of it. I guess my aunt and grandmother also had it. So they've all also tested negative for the gene that carries the cancer but theyve ended up with it. I dont fully understand it at all but here we are. My husband has changed jobs. Now instead of milking lawnmowers, hes making them for Ferris. He seems to like the job theres more benefits to it then milking cows and hes alot happier too. He has some health issues now. Hes got hypothyroidism as well as high cholesterol. Trying to cook for him has become next to impossible to get anything good into him. Im still working with my same cast of characters minus two. I still am getting burned out from no breaks, still dealing with all my stresses and learning how to deal with them somehow or another while my body seems to be falling apart at an alarming rate lately. Yes I know stress and burning the candle at both ends will catch up to me and it has. But i am in such a shape now that im unsure how to help myself from my own dowhill spiral ive created. Any advice would be very helpful. Im tired of making excuses for myself and my current situation and frankly, im tired of being tired all the time and depressed lately. I dont care about anything or not as much as i used to anyway. All things i need to tell my doctor when i see her next week. Im thinking my meds need tweeking but am unsure if its that or just a simple fact of needing a vacation so desperately. Oh well tell me your thoughts and ill try them. Well hope this helps some...probably wont but here goes anyway...im hoping to reconnect with old friends and make some new ones if i could without chasing you away as i have everyone else in my life...have a good one!