I'm Trying Yoga Today!
Monday, July 16, 2018
This is a huge step for me. I'm on the introvert spectrum, so I have a fair amount of social anxiety. Group exercise classes are something I always want to do, but then chicken out for various reasons.
Tonight I'm actually going to go. I have my mat, water bottle, and a towel.
Ok, confession. Earlier in the day, I was coming up with excuses for why I shouldn't go. Should I or shouldn't I? I talked myself into "Should I? Yes!"
I can tell good changes are happening. This morning I felt like my tummy looked flatter, which was a big boost to my mood! I put on a flattering dress and felt really great.
The weight shouldn't matter, but I can't deny the effect it has on my mood. When I'm feeling comfortable in my clothes, I am more confident. When I'm feeling fat, I change my clothes like 6 times in the morning until I'm wearing something that I feel is camouflage.
Feeling fat also makes me not want to do things, which is a vicious cycle. If I don't go out and do things, I get fatter.
When I feel fat, my social anxiety goes to 11. I have been wanting to join this yoga class for a long time, but I didn't work up the courage. It's silly, because the activities are what helps me not be fat, so if I would just go to the class...
I know I'm making good progress because I'm starting to feel like I should be doing more. I have this energy that is making me break into spontaneous pushups or situps because I feel like I need to move. It's not like I'm thinking, "I need to move so I can burn some calories". It's more like, "I have all this extra energy - I need to move!"
I love my cycling, so I'm not going to say that I'm bored of it. I would do it all day, every day, if I could. But I'm at a point where I'm thinking, "What other activities can I do?"
Hence, the yoga class. If all goes well with the class, I might even try the Aqua Zumba class on Thursday!