So those of you who read my blog regularly know this already, I had a doctors appointment yesterday.
I had been doing low carb for the whole month of July and lost a total of 14 pounds since June 9th at my last appointment. I was in a cheerful mood, feeling optimistic.
Then I did the unthinkable....well, not unthinkable to a foodie who has issues with self control....I went thru the Wendy's drive thru!!!!
I didnt go overboard, but I had one leg hanging over the edge...I got the 4 for 4. Jr cheeseburger, fries, 4pc nuggets and a small sweet tea. and since I had done so well last month, I treated myself to a small chocolate frosty. Which turned out to be no treat at all.
Pulled into the parking lot at the grocery store, I only needed a few things, I had already been to three or four stores so I was just wanting to hurry it up and get home, and I hadnt eaten since early morning..
Anyway. I took the bun and tossed it back into the bag and ate the meat, tomato and lettuce from the burger. I ate a few fries, but they were too salty, so I left them. I ate the 4pc nuggets and drank about half the sweet tea.
This alone was probably my carbs and calories for the week!!!
Then I took about 3 bites of the frosty. I found it to be too sweet, and got an instant brain freeze.
So, I left it, I went into the store and by the time I got my cart and started to walk into do some shopping, I was already feeling sluggish, ahcy and tired. I felt like I was carrying a back pack full of stones.
One trip down the first aisle and I just couldnt go on.
I grabbed the one most important item I needed and got in line. That alone was tiring, I stood there waiting my turn, with pain and feeling like I needed to lay down.
By the time I paid and walked back to my car I was a slug, barely creeping along.
I tossed the frosty, half cup of tea and left over fries in the nearest trash can and grabbed a bottle of water for the ride home.
I had one more stop to make, at the pharmacy and I was sitting there waiting for my prescription to be filled, feeling like a total failure and a total glob of oompa loompa!!!
The sugar played havoc on my body all night last night, I ached down in my lower back, I was a slug at home, not feeling like even carrying in the groceries.
I carried in everything that had to be refrigerated and left the rest for Honey to bring in when he got home.
I learned a lesson.
If you go a month without that junk, without salty fries, and sugary drinks and sweet whatever frosty's are made of....and then you try to eat it, you learn what it really does to your body.
In just the few minutes it took for me to walk into the grocery store and get a cart, I was feeling like all I wanted to do was sleep.
I really wish people who ate that way every single day had to go a month or two without that food and find out what they are really doing to themselves.
I not only felt the physical effects of the food, but of course the same old emotional effects, today I am depressed and tired and angry with myself for allowing myself to give in.
I told myself it was ok because I had done so well all month, so one little sweet tea and one little frosty wasnt going to be the end of the world.
That is the way of thinking that has gotten me where I have been and where I am fighting everyday to get out of.
So, there it is.
Now I am trying to purge the sugar from my body and get rid of the leftover effects.
Back to the grind.