I have always wanted to be somebody, but now I realize I have to be more specific.

Saturday, July 14, 2007

As I sit here today. My friend Grace has just passed away. It makes me realize how quickly life can just be over. How important it is to do what we mean to do now. We may not have a tomorrow. I sit here and feel hollow inside and I feel like such a loser. Why am I alive and she isnt? She had a husband who loved her. She was young! She was always happy and fun to be around. She was a light. I'll never forget her. I wish now that I had sent that get well card when she got sick from the flu instead of complaining that I got sick too,, now it's too late. Please, don't put off those important communications.. you may not have another chance. Now I will send Pete a sympathy card but how I wish Grace had had a card from me when she was alive. Now here I sit with a card in my hand that she never got. It serves to remind me how important it is to reach out to those we love and let them know how important they are to us. If you are reading this and have someone you need to write.. do it now, do it today.. regrets are hard to live with. Take it from me. I have a heavy heart today and I feel so ashamed of myself. How could I get so wrapped up in my own little world that I wasn't there for my friend? Sure I've lost weight. I've loved the journey but I wish I had been a better friend.
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    Truer words were never spoken. I'm going to a memorial service for a lady today who just found out she had ovarian cancer 6 months ago. Enjoy your todays... Leslie Ann
    4559 days ago
    Kari~ Please don't beat yourself over "what you should have dones" I believe Grace is looking down at you and knows how much she meant to you. You are right though, you have to live for today and not wait til tomorrow. So with that, I am glad that I got to meet you and have you as one of my friends. Even if its just on Spark People, you are still part of my life now.

    4566 days ago
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    I'm sure that Grace knew how much you loved her. Don't beat yourself up. There is nothing that you can do. I am not a religious person but I do believe that those we lose can still keep an eye on us. I have heard of an idea that may be useful. I would write her a note now, just let it all pour out. Then go outside somewhere where you wouldn't have to worry about starting a fire and burn it. The smoke should certainly reach her where-ever she is and she will know if she doesn't already how you feel now. I am sorry for your loss and wish you the best in the healing process. My heart is with you!!! - Heather
    4568 days ago
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