someone please catch that boomerang
Wednesday, November 07, 2018
i have been violently ill all week.
I suppose its a sinus infection, or something similar.
maybe strep throat,
i havent gone to the doctor, because i am having car issues and honey is having to drive the only running auto we have right now to work.
insert here, how you learn who you can rely on, when you are sick, no one offers to take you to the doctor.
no one really cares.
that is very much the truth, people are busy and dont want to take on anyone elses burden.
well, we all have our fears....spiders, flying, etc.
for me, one of my biggest fears is falling,
so yesterday, i was out in our yard, it was a pretty nice day, and i had on flip flops, then it happened....i slipped in some mud and fell.
i fell pretty hard on my rump and lower back.
i got up and hobbled back to the house, i was covered from hip to feet in mud.
i soaked in the tub for awhile, tearing up about the pain i was in, the coughing fits that only added to my pain and just the overall overwhelming time i have been having lately.
it was uncomfortable but no serious injury.
but now i am in so much pain i cant stand it.
mostly my head hurts and i cant be sure if its from stubbing myself up when i fell, or all the cold cough meds i have taken over the last few days.
so i decided today i am not going to take any medicine and just ride it out, if it is the cold meds maybe they will be out of my body by the end of the day and i will get some relief.
i dont know if people out there in spark land believe in karma, or curses or whatever, but something is happening in my life.
i am being tested right now.
honey and i have argued all week over the situation with the autos.
someone needs to make a move to get one or both of the broken down cars fixed.
at this point today i can barely walk to the coffee maker to pour my second cup.
my plans for today were to clean my house, wash all my bedding after being sick and scrub every surface in the house down good with bleach and lysol.
but i cant even do that today.
it is just too much on me right now and i feel like a ton of bricks are falling one at a time.
i dont know if its karma, if i have wronged someone so badly or did such a bad deed that its come back to pay me back or if its just that its a poo storm all at once.
i dont know how much more i can take and i cant even run away from it because i have no ride and i sure aint in no shape to actually run.