Planning and in control ?
Friday, November 30, 2018
I like to plan. I like to know what is happening. Part of my planning and control is exercising (mostly walking 3.5 miles in about 80 minutes) first thing in the morning before anyone or anything can prevent me from doing it. I'm in control of it. Its a time I know I can do it. Then its done! There are times that I take people to a near by city for early morning surgery. Sometimes while they are in surgery, I walk around the hospital parking lot. I still get it in. But its in my planning. Its doable and I do it. I'm in control. I'm confident in it.
As many of my SparkTeam and my SparkFriends know, I'm having surgery next Thursday on my left foot for my bunion and hammer toe. I planned this last summer. I live in Montana where we have winter with snow, ice and very cold temperatures. So I will be laid up during the winter months. I planned this. I'm in control.
I shared this with my SparkTeam mates this morning. My motivation for the exercise, is my fear of getting fat and being a couch potato again . This is a deep-rooted fear. I don't want to go there. Exercise helps with preventing this. I know that exercise is only part of losing weight or maintaining. I'm in control.
I've heard the saying, that when man (or women) plan, God laughs. He's the One that is really in control.
Next Thursday, my control is not going to be there. I know a little bit what to expect the first few days. For one, I'll have a nerve block in my left leg and I will not be able to put any weight on it until that block wears off. So I'll be using crutches. After that, I know I will have a boot on that will force me to walk on my heel. I will be able to get around this way for a few weeks. After that, I don't know. I find the not-knowing scary. I want to know WHEN I can start walking again. I know I have to let my body rest, so that my body puts all its strength into healing. I want to heal quickly. The doctor told me all this, but there was so many details given in a short time, that I can't remember it all, especially the approximate time frames.
I won't be able to control.
Rest, Rest, Rest. So that I can heal.