My last post...
Thursday, December 20, 2018
This will be my last blog post of the year so it will touch on a little of everything.
Whenever I think about what I need to be eating, what I need to stop eating, the amount of foods, things I need to focus on I get stressed out and just push it to the back of my head. It really hit me around thanksgiving that I NEED to work on my health. It is so hard to change what you eat. In the past when looking at PCOS diets I would panic but a couple weeks ago I found a blog about what to eat and for once I didnt feel overwhelmed. I took this as a sign so Im going to follow what she says. I took my notes and I really think I can do. I want to prove to myself that I can do this. I've done this in the past, proved to myself that I could make good grades. In High School I was so stressed out and full of anxiety that I just barely passed by the skin of my teeth and when I went to community college I got a GPA of 3.6. I told myself that I can do this and to stay focused. I even did all this with dealing with finding out I have PCOS. So after taking the notes my next step is to plan out meals. Ive decided to not involve my aunt or grandma in this because thats one of the reasons why I kept pushing it aside. Kept thinking about what I can fix them because they are both picky. If I have to use up a lot of dishes just to fix one dinner then so be it. I also have to get into the habit of meal prep.
Exercise is the next thing on my list. I havent been to the gym in over a year and its driving me crazy. I feel so relaxed at the gym and thats why I like going. I know I can exercise here at home but its different. I plan to go Saturday morning before heading out to my grandparents place for Christmas. Tomorrow Im going to be busy with cleaning house, making 10 loafs of pumpkin bread, and a German Chocolate cake (from scratch, so good). I still dont have an exercise plan because my aunt works second shift and when she gets home we get my grandma on the toilet (dementia and water on the brain) so we usually dont make it to bed till 1/130am and sometimes even 4. She gets off at 11 but is sometimes stuck there till 2 or 3 depending on the weather. I would love to get to sleep by 12:30 and wake up at 7 to head to the gym while them 2 are still asleep. Start out with 3x a week to the gym and then working my way up to every single day. I also want to do some exercises here at home and yoga every day. In the past I would always over do it and my muscles would hate me for days so I plan to start small.
My mind has been in a fog for over a year and Its been hard to stay focused. Im thinking it has to do with my grandmas health plus my health and its just too much. Exercise, eating better, and meditation/yoga, fingers crossed, should help clear out the fog. I hope it does because I need to get back to writing. I have notebooks full of ideas for scary shorts, mysteries, kids, and the supernatural/fantasy.
For the next 11 days Im going to get ready to change my life for the better. It wont fully start until after my aunts birthday, Jan 6. I am going to watch what I eat but on the 7th Im going sugar free. Im going to see just how long I can go. If I go crazy then Im going to slowly cut it out. There is a lot Im going to miss but like exercise I need to go at it slow. No cold turkey here.
I will post my weight and measurements and my mood Jan 1st first thing in the morning. Then on April 1st Im going to post my update. ::playing Eye of the Tiger in my head::