Time to move on
Thursday, January 24, 2019
I am sick and tired of being why I am and where I am. It is time for me to get my move on and move forward. This includes new job, new place, and a new healthier me. I've been telling myself I have been doing good, but in all reality I have been doing worse and worse. One of my great-uncles died recently and it resonated with me. Of all my family, I think I saw the most of me in him, as far as personality wise. He was quiet and independent and kind and always wanted to take care of others. I was quite like that when I was younger, and quite proud of it. It just reminds me a where I could be at, where I could go, and what to do or not to do. He died without a wife, because he was always prioritizing others above him. Aside from that he was often not the most fit guy, for the same reasons. But he was the nicest guy I ever knew. So it gave me a point of view that I think few others get. PS my face is always red, not crying. Although I saw a lot of myself in him, I didn't really know him that well because I understood the quietness and wanting to be left alone and just watching and enjoying that.