I've been inexplicably hungry for the last almost-week. I've been racking my brain trying to figure out why. I swear, I get amnesia about these things.
It took a near-meltdown vent session with a friend to stop binge eating candy this week - in that instance, it turns out I need people to talk to and not just live in my brain all the time.
On top of that, after talking to a different friend, I realized that it was also "that time of the month" which usually has no identifiable correlation (or maybe I am oblivious) but very clearly has this month.
This morning, I'm reading through "14 Reasons You Are Always Hungry" as a way to make myself feel less crazy, realizing #5 hits the nail on the head - "You aren't drinking enough water". So true. The water on my floor of the building tastes awful, so I have to walk downstairs to get good tasting water. You wouldn't think it was a barrier, but it is... makes it less convenient, so I'm less likely to make the effort.
This article also has me thinking about the quality of my food. My first reaction was "I need to clean this up" but I'm keenly aware this may be the ED talking. I need to start with reasonable actions - like drinking more water - before deciding to change my eating for arbitrary reasons.
Not to mention is has been brutally cold this past week so I haven't been able to get as much movement in outdoors as I have been this month. Clearly, movement plays a key role in making me feel more sane and less hungry.
Then there is the fact that I'm nearly -20# lost and I may be self-consciously sabotaging myself again. It wouldn't be the first time.
And the intuitive eating class that has been triggering me for the last two weeks...
And the general sense of discontent I have waiting when I am an extremely impatient person....
I guess it could be a myriad of things, the list goes on and on. Why is it I always forget these things? I think I need to literally create and carry a list that will help me remember.
This mid-week blog was brought to you by The Polar Vortex aka Hell Freezing Over. Minneapolis is a balmy -27 air temp, and -51 wind chill. My employer had the foresight to close for the day so it is an old-fashioned "snow day" for me! I feel like a kid again, except instead of eating cereal in my pajamas and watching cartoons, I am drinking coffee in my pajamas writing a blog. I guess not so different after all.
Stay warm. And aware. Apparently it is helpful.