Yet another new start
Saturday, February 09, 2019
So I had a meltdown the other night ... having gained a few lbs, yet again, I was at my highest weight in years. Something needed to be done.
So I've started over ... again. I'm now trying to track food the day before, so that I have a plan. The last two days have been great in terms of monitoring calories, exercise, and sticking to the preset plan, more or less. (Reasonable deviations are OK, but it's great to have a plan as a starting point.) And it eases my mind that I've lost 1.8 lbs in the last 2 days (OK, so it was probably water weight - it's still a much more comforting number for me to see on the scale.)
However, I'm worried. I've gone to bed quite hungry (to the point of lightheadedness) tonight and last night. I'm obsessing. I worry that this isn't sustainable. How long do I have to do it before it becomes a habit? Also, going to bed hungry is doable, but probably at some point I'll snap. How to manage?
I'm also concerned about challenges. For example, tomorrow I'm having breakfast at home, tea with a friend for lunch (like high tea, with finger sandwiches and a scone), and probably dinner out. How do I manage this?
I guess I can try to make a plan and stick to it as best I can. That will be the goal: Finger sandwiches, half the scone, no clotted cream or jam, no dessert. But will I be hungry? What if I am? What do I do then? And dinner out - some type of salad with dressing on the side and chicken or fish in it, right? Can I fit in a workout? Tomorrow will be about being flexible and resourceful. Wish me luck.