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I want my life back

Tuesday, April 16, 2019

I've been AWOL a few days again. I'm still not sleeping well and I am approaching total exhaustion. I've already had 2 adjustments to the ptsd meds. I'm able to mostly function, but I need sleep.

A friend has been coming and helping tear through the house. Other than painting, we should be able to have it done by the end of the week.

I finally got her to give me a dollar amount for helping. She didn't want to charge me at all. I told her it may take a while to get her paid, but she is getting paid!

If I were to pay her what her help and support are worth to us right now, I'd owe her about 10 grand emoticon

It will get better, but I want to not panic every time I see a scruffy looking 20 or 30 something year old man. I want to not shake and have to fight crying every time I drive the minivan. I want to sleep through the night again.

I really want my life back.

Hope you all have a good week. I'm not Ok yet, but I will be...eventually...

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