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Winning the War

Thursday, April 25, 2019

I was diagnosed with diabetes in January of this year. I asked my Doctor for 90 days to work on diet and exercise before we resorted to meds and he agreed. Struggling with weight my whole life taught me a whole lot about what not to do, yet I did it anyway, and now I am suffering the hard consequence of all those bad choices. Why would this time around be any different? I'll tell you why! I beat Phillip Morris. If I can beat cigarettes, I can darn sure beat Frito Lay, Hersheys, and McDonalds! :) I will share the following concerning that: My husband and I haven't smoked in 20 months. Not a single puff. After 25 years of a pack a day, NOT ONE PUFF. I found that even though the cravings were few and far between after a couple of months, cigarette smoke still smelled heavenly to me. Months after that last drag, my mouth watered when I saw a cashier hand a customer a carton of my old brand. I was upset by this. I beat it, right? Wasn't it supppsed to be abhorrent to me? Weren't people who smoke supposed to smell bad? Well, they didn't. I wanted to sniff their clothes! I didn't smoke em, but I still wanted em. I simply didnt smoke em. So, Fast forward: Last week, I had quite a few clients that were smokers in my office for interviews. I barely survived the closed-door encounters with them. They stunk SO BAD I wanted to open the window and spray something. I suffered during every single interview. That didnt happen last month. TWENTY MONTHS. Thats how long it took for cigarettes to become abhorrent to me. I thought that because they still smelled yummy even after a year, that I would always like, miss, and feel nostalgic about smoking. Boy, was I dead wrong!! I just needed to be patient. By knowing that, I KNOW beyond a shadow of a doubt that even though sometimes Doritos sing their siren song to me, and Bubblecake Cupcake shop is pretty convenient to my ride home, if I just hold the line long enough and faithfully enough, their song will become wretched noise. And so I persevere. I haven't beat the unhealthy yet, but I know the victory of that win. I've felt it's kin. And I do not doubt for a single second that THIS win will be SO MUCH BETTER. All I have to do is keep on keepin on, one day at a time, heck, sometimes it's one minute to the next, and victory will be mine! One thing's for sure, though. This just keeps getting easier. :) Tomorrow is my 90-day Dr. Appointment. I have lost 37 pounds and counting. 2 sizes. 24 cumulative inches. My blood sugar is on average, down about 40 points. I will find out my A1C when I go tomorrow. I have ways to go in this journey to health, but I am winning this war. I can't wait to see what the next 90 days holds. #Optavia #LifelongTransformation
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  • EISSA7
    Love your blog....so very honest and true! You WILL persevere and are doing very well!! emoticon
    302 days ago
    Keep trudging that road to happy destiny emoticon
    302 days ago
    Good luck and you can do it
    302 days ago
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