Thursday, May 30, 2019
I'm still plugging away at excavating the junk in my head - looking at who I want to be and how to get past my own hangups.
Something fairly obvious hit me this week - At any moment I can be who I want to be. I don't have to spend hundreds of hours thinking about the past or where I went wrong or how I messed up and how to do it better - I can just be the me I want to be right now. If i want to dig up the past and learn from it, that's okay, and might be useful, but I don't need to wait til i have all the answers to just start being me.
At the same time, I'm a long way from being who I want to be - I'm not healthy or organized or full of faith etc - I've slipped in all these areas over the last dozen years or so.
It's a bit overwhelming to see what all needs to change but I can make small choices each day that get me closer to want I want to be.
I can be renewed - but it won't happen all at once.