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A new Start

Thursday, June 20, 2019

I have let half the year go by and cannot get motivated again at all. Early in the year my mom was diagnosed with bone cancer and multiple myeloma and I spent months fighting depression and anxiety over this. She finished radiation but they now say there is nothing they can do anymore. So I have lived my days in sadness and I cannot shake this feeling of guilt and doing anything for myself just seems selfish at this point.

I lost my fitbit and I had finally gotten it set up perfectly for my stride and it goes awol. I am not sure if one of the furbabies have it hidden somewhere playing with it or where it's run off too.

I wish I could find some motivation in myself to even eat better would be a definite step in the right direction at this point!
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    Thank you for the words of's just a difficult time and I just don't know where to start at this point. I know in my heart my mom would want me to try. My mom is 78 and has advanced dementia so she really doesn't understand what is happening to her physically. It's just hard for me to process that it's ok for me to get up and get moving and start my weight loss journey back again.
    623 days ago
    So sorry to hear about your mom. I lost my father last year after finding out he had cancer which had spread throught his body. My heart goes out to you. Please remember you do need to take time for yourself. Prayers.
    623 days ago
    I am so sorry about your mom. I am sorry about your Fitbit. Sometimes you just have to do something.. get off the couch and get in the floor. Do some stretches. Destress. Hugs
    623 days ago
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