A new Start
Thursday, June 20, 2019
I have let half the year go by and cannot get motivated again at all. Early in the year my mom was diagnosed with bone cancer and multiple myeloma and I spent months fighting depression and anxiety over this. She finished radiation but they now say there is nothing they can do anymore. So I have lived my days in sadness and I cannot shake this feeling of guilt and doing anything for myself just seems selfish at this point.
I lost my fitbit and I had finally gotten it set up perfectly for my stride and it goes awol. I am not sure if one of the furbabies have it hidden somewhere playing with it or where it's run off too.
I wish I could find some motivation in myself to even eat better would be a definite step in the right direction at this point!