FINALLY ACCEPTING MY DIAGNOSIS OF TYPE 2 DIABETES
Friday, July 05, 2019
"DENIAL IS NOT A RIVER IN EGYPT." is a slogan in 12 Step recovery programs. I've been in denial since my diagnosis of Type 2 Diabetes in June of 2015. I did my finger sticks regularly and all of my AIC's were good. It didn't take me long to say to my Diabetes " Look...my numbers are good...see, you aren't real after all. I can eat what I want." And so I did for 3 and a half years. On my last visit to my doctor, My AIC was 6.7. I have always been honest with her about eating what I wanted. Well, that day she looked at me and said, " You ARE a diabetic Elayne. Please don't deny this disease any longer." I promised her I wouldn't deny the disease for my sake.
Last week I was hungrier than usual and made some unhealthy choices. On this past Monday morning when I checked my blood sugar it was very high...163 before breakfast. The normal range is 70 to 130. The next day it was even higher...174. I called my nurse friend and she assured me that as long as I'm tracking what I eat again and become honest with myself when I eat, my numbers will come down. On Wed, July 3 my sugar was 153. Yea...I am going the right direction. On July 4th I celebrated by shouting in joy as I finally reached 129..normal range. This morning my blood sugar was 127. Talk about being grateful to God and my friend for believing in me. YES, I CAN do this. Denial will no longer rule in my head.
I'm 70 years young and I have decided to let my hair grow out to its natural color..actually 2 colors...Salt and Pepper like my Nana's was. She had beautiful hair. I've been coloring it for 10 years now...it's time for a change. The transition begins Wednesday with a short summer cut. I know this will be a gradual change and I will be praying for the Lord to grant me patience. I'm excited about the new me...both inside and out. "But Lord, I want this done yesterday."