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Saturday, July 13, 2019

When I look at this I remember exactly still what it felt like to be 386 pounds. I hated going to the gym and just 3 years before that I loved going to the gym. Everything was so hard and working out felt like punishment for bad behavior. I could not do any of the things that I had done before and it was hard to make it thru a 30 minute workout. And the last time I went to the gym I was making it thru to over an hour and 20 minute workouts.

What this really means is you have to start somewhere and when you are morbidly overweight this means you start at the bottom and work your way up. for a long long while I would work out everyday even if it was doing a home workout. I did not want to lose everything I had built. I associated everything working hard with that space. "The Gym" and I worked hardest at the gym than I ever did at home.

Right now in the moment I cannot financially get a new membership and I have to start doing what I absolutely know how to do at home for the time being. I have been taught and trained what to do. I have a weight bench and weights, as well as a few weight bars.

When I first started lifting weights I absolutely hated it! I hated nothing more than that. My gym partner taught me old school that for every muscle there was a free weight exercise for that muscle group. Nothing prepared me for how everything would hurt, places hurt that I never imagined could hurt. It would take me days to recover sometimes and one day I could add more weight and another day I was outgrowing the weights I had used from the beginning on the strength training machines. I was making progress.

For whatever reason I always stopped going to the gym whether it be because I had some bill I had to pay or needed groceries and I couldn't accept that I truly could not afford to get my monthly membership and I hated that. Because it always meant I had to start all over again and rebuild everything I had worked so hard to attain.

Being poor and living in Appalachia is not for the faint of heart. I may write a little about that. I am from a very small town in Appalachia. There literally are very few jobs, and zero public transportation. SO to get anywhere you must have a car. The other option is doing what I have been doing since 2008 which is working from home online. At the time I saw it as my only option and now it's even harder to find a job online that pays well enough to meet all of your needs.

Let's talk about the other aspect of weight loss which is you simply cannot afford to eat healthy all the time if your poor, which I am as poor as it gets at the moment. Everything I was raised on is definitely classified as high fat or high carb foods and to make it here you must supplement some of your diet with those things if your on a meager food budget. You cannot outrun your fork either, I know and I have tried to. All you can do is try and make better choices and work with what you have to balance some things in your diet out.
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    Thank your for sharing your life with us! You WILL persevere!
    575 days ago
    Love your attitude!
    584 days ago
    Interesting = never give up
    596 days ago
    I also am from a small town in Appalachia. I know what you mean. I look forward to reading more about your progress.
    597 days ago
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    Great attitude and perseverance! Thank you for sharing
    600 days ago
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    I'd love to read more about where you're from too. My grandparents had these books from there, the Foxfire series, filled with these wonderful crafts.
    601 days ago
    @lilygrace4 I have never had crunchy kraut and shuck beans lol
    602 days ago
    I have a very close relationship with my Aunt and we often discuss the challenges in living in Appalachia however that being said. I have lived in major cities during the early part of my marriage when my husband would be deployed and I always craved this spot I call home. Women of this region have been forced to become very skilled in budgeting food to feed sometimes large families and my mother taught me many things about it.

    I am thankful for many things I was raised to be my moral compass in my life and for parents who were deeply invested in this life. It's challenging to live and be a part of this but I do not want to live anywhere else. This place is forever in my blood. I may write some later about living here, being raised here, and what we did to survive. emoticon
    602 days ago
    Wow, Valerie, I enjoyed your blog, and I agree with LilyGrace, I would love to hear about living in Appalachia, and what it's like..

    As far as not being able to afford certain things,... I was raised in Oklahoma, so I understand about not having money for certain things.. but it was the way we were raised and we didn't know any difference, so we were happy and made do with whatever we had.. My mom even sent banana sandwiches for lunch when I was a kid.. (not my favorite sandwich) lol

    After I was married, there were times when there was a shortage of money, and I had to take a calculator to the store, so I knew I would have enough money to pay for it..

    I am so thankful the Lord doesn't look at our wallet, or where we are from.. He created us to be who we are and He knew where we would be living and we can serve the Lord wherever and be a witness for Him wherever we are.. I am so thankful it doesn't take money to have a personal relationship with our Heavenly Father , and that eternity is not purchased , but someday we will spend it with our Father, who is the King of Kings..

    Have a blessed day, emoticon emoticon emoticon
    Sharon ( Joybell47)

    602 days ago
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    Amen Valerie! My mom was born in Appalachia and we were raised on the same types of food. While I wasn't raised in the Appalachia, it runs deep in my veins. I hope you will write about your life there. You know what I miss from there?...Crunchy kraut and shuck beans. lol! Do you make them at all?
    602 days ago
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