Saturday, July 20, 2019
Every day I find it even more amazing how much my life is changing and has changed in the last 7-8 years.
Six years ago this month I took a huge step and walked away from an abusive situation. It was really hard because I had no self confidence and didn't know how I was going to survive. I found myself in a shelter for 4 months. When I left I weighed roughly 345-350 lbs. I had no car and I was in a small town that had very limited public transportation. I had to walk almost a quarter of a mile to catch the one and only bus in town. In the four months I was there, I lost several sizes and got a car. Then I took another huge step and moved 800+ miles away from the areas I knew as home. I only knew a couple of people in my new destination, so it was well out of my comfort zone. I continued to lose weight for a while, but it wasn't long before reduced activity and poor eating habits led to regaining weight.
I worked some dead end jobs and kept saying I wanted to go to school, but I kept working those jobs. Until divine intervention made it impossible for me to do those jobs, and the door opened for me to go to school in 2016-2017. The weight was still up and not coming off.
Now, here I am. It's 2019 and I am four courses from completing not one but two associate degrees with a 4.0 GPA. I am starting a new job where I will be utilizing my education. I am making a salary, not an hourly rate. I have lost almost 30 lbs and have gone from a size 30/32W down to a size 24/26W with roominess in some things or a 20/22W in some tops. I have a loving supportive boyfriend. I have more energy and I feel better. My confidence in myself has gone way up. 7 years ago I would have said there is no way any of this was possible. I am continually amazed by the changes happening in my life. If anyone who reads this is feeling like things will never change, I'm here to say it can. How? You have to step out of your comfort zone, and do what you've never done before. Don't give up! Keep moving! Sometimes there are steps backward or sideways but keep working and moving. The confidence will come sometimes without you realizing it.