Day 17 - I feel good!
Friday, August 09, 2019
The results of taking care of my inner happiness and emotions pay off big time! Almost every day for past 10-12 days I have been listening to all these positive thinking, meditation, and other motivational youtube videos while exercising, and envisioning my Future Self as much as I can. It is life changing! The long lost feeling of true happiness and lightness is back, and the moment it starts waning, I start talking to my future self, how she keeps on going, and how she makes herself happy. We are so lucky and blessed to live in this era of youtube, where there is an endless treasury of self-help, educational, DIY videos on top of all the entertainment that it provides. Any person can do anything just by finding the solution on youtube. Thanks to Chad Hurley, Steve Chen, and Jawed Karim for starting Youtube 14 years ago from their garage!
When I feel happy and concentrate on me and the things I love doing or do things lovingly, it is so easy not to fill myself with food, but instead eat to get nutrients. Instead of just concentrating on weight loss and waiting impatiently for results, and then getting frustrated when the results are not as attractive as I wanted, I now concentrate on doing things that need to be done and enjoying my days by not feeling guilty, and doing several activities that uplift me. I am more spontaneous, instead of blocking and killing the inside feeling of wanting to do something, I try to jump on my thoughts and postpone or skip the things that I don't appreciate so much. For example, the other day I wanted to take my puppy for a neighborhood walk for the first time. Before this, I would get the idea in my head, but then I would think that I should clean the house or do the dishes, or prepare the dinner, and that I was tired to go for a walk, etc. This time, I just followed my heart, and put the leash on Moshi and out the gate! We walked and ran for may be just 15-20 minutes, but it was such a great feeling, and the dishes got done later, and I prepared quick sandwiches instead of standing at the stove for 30 minutes and then cleaning the mess in another 30 minutes. Everything can be done, just we need to find the easier solutions instead of complicating things in our heads and stopping ourselves from doing things. It is so amazing to be in harmony with yourself, to feel that you are doing the right things, that you are in line with your wishes and actions. Just two weeks ago I would think of all the to-dos and chores, and drive myself crazy with responsibilities even before getting anything done, and usually I was tired even before starting anything. Now, I don't think that much of what to do, and doing chores fells more like pleasure and something I enjoy doing.
Today I am 210, just another .5 lb and I am a step down to the 200-209 increment which absolutely can be tomorrow. This summer I started at 225-227, then went down a bit to 222-225 in June, and started at the beginning of July I was about 220-222. Feels so good to go down a size in a month!