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The Root of ALL EVIL****************

Wednesday, August 14, 2019

I went to bed crying, I woke up and cried. I have a Visa card for $30 put back for my college granddaughter's birthday, August 30th. But are care is on a fourth of a tank and there are doctor appointments that are out of town. I have the only money for gas. So I have to spend the Visa card for gas and hope I can get money out of my next Social Security check and send a late birthday to my granddaughter. But right now I feel so low. I have eaten Rock Road ice cream and I don't feel like exercising. And guess what I am doing while I write this? I am crying more. I don't want to be greedy, I know it is a sin but I'm so tired of not having enough to get by. I feel SO VERY LOW. I HATE MONEY!! MY SAVIOR, LORD, GOD have MERCY on me PLEASE!
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    Thank you all for your comments. And the Lord heard my prayers and I was able to get to doctor, get meds and send gift to granddaughter. MY GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD!
    102 days ago
    I am sorry you have to go thru this. Life is sometimes hard.
    I will send you as much good thoughts and good energy as I can hoping it will give you strength till this passes.

    Hang on!
    102 days ago
    I'm on SSD. I had to stop giving my nieces and nephews Christmas gifts years ago. You know what, they get enough crap lol. I need to pay rent, utilities and food. I drive an almost 20 yo car in Charleston SC that hasn't had AC in at least 10 yrs.
    114 days ago
    First, please remember your granddaughter loves you and her love is not contingent upon a gift card in any amount. Secondly, you will not (did not) squander the gift you intended to send on some meaningless indulgence as you have an urgent and pressing need. And thirdly, as you call upon Our Lord and Savior, understand as His creation, His mercy will deliver you!

    Stop eating and surrender to His will and His power. Let us agree in faith, you will have what you need.

    114 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/14/2019 1:02:30 PM
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    I hear your struggle today. Take care if you, there is no greed or sin in that. That is the best gift you can give to yourself, self care & kindness.
    114 days ago
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