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Where Does The Time Go?

Friday, August 16, 2019

It has been almost 2 months since I last updated. I don't know where the time goes... I know part of the reason is I feel like there isn't anything to update. I am not actively doing anything GREAT to get towards my goals so that makes me feel like updating is pointless. You wonderful people will say that's not at all true but that's just because you are all too nice!! ;)

I will say in not so earth shattering news as it has only been a couple pounds, but I finally got back into the 220's. I went back into my records and I have not see the 220's since May of 2018! As the title of my blog says where does the time go? I remember when I met Luke Bryan for the first time in June of 2017 (you remember big life events like that LOL!) I was about 235. This just shows how comfortable I've become with being in the 230's that it's been hard to shake. The lowest I think I have gotten between then and now is around 217, maybe a few pounds less. While I say comfortable with the 230's I know right away that comfortable isn't the right word. There is NOTHING comfortable about the 230's for me. Walking is hard, going up my stairs is hard, my knees are under extra unnecessary pressure... but the more you see a number the more you are beaten over the head with it and the more it becomes the new normal.

It's so funny because when I was initially coming down from 272, 230 was a dream. 230 felt amazing, and I was so proud of being that low. But on the upswing (I was as low as 181), it is definitely a different ball game. It is frustrating, it's defeating and it's uncomfortable. I started the year at 241 and I am 228 today. Part of me looks at that and says wow what a waste of 8 1/2 months, the other half of me says wow, at least you did a little something positive. I am more than capable of gaining about 30 pounds in a year (if I am really that far off the rails), so the fact that I am not in the 260's is a relief. But while that is a relief I don't want that to give me permission to start going in the wrong direction.

My brother (my biggest supporter in this fight) really wants to see me lose 8 pounds this month. We are half way through the month and I have only lost 3 pounds, there is a very good chance I won't hit that goal, but if I could even lose 2 more to get to a loss of 5 pounds lost I know he will still be happy and so will I. I have to remember progress is progress.

In fun news I work Sat-Tues (I work 12 hour shifts 3x a week and one 8 hour shift every other week)... .then I am off for TEN DAYS! I will be on a road trip to see... you guessed it... Luke Bryan. He is playing Fresno, Wheatland (near Sacaramento), Mountain View (near San Jose) and South Lake Tahoe. I am going to the first 2 with a friend although we are not sitting together. Then she will be flying back home and I am going onto the next two alone, but a fellow concert buddy is sitting with me at the other two shows. It is definitely going to be a first for me, seeing him 4 nights in a row. He rarely does 4 nights in a row to begin with, my previous record was 3 nights in a row but at the same venue. I am doing about a 3-4 hour drive most days to keep up with him, it is going to be exhausting but I think it'll be worth it.

I have to say that with my mystery health issues (my right side of my body is swollen and no one knows why), my known health issues (rheumatoid arthritis which is in a nasty flare right now, and then add my metal plate and screw in my left leg/ankle), I often worry about the future of my mobility. The reason I am able to do as much traveling and Luke stalking as I do is highly dependent on my mobility and the fact that I am able to do these things alone. While I try not to spend time thinking about things that may never happen, I am trying to do all the things I want to do now while I can and am physically able to just in case. That on top of the fact I spent so many years not doing what I wanted cuz I let my weight hold me back and I feel the need to make up fo lost time.

If you read this boring blog, you are definitely too nice, but I appreciate you! ;)
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  • TOKIEMOON
    Sounds like although your weight loss may have stalled, other things are going very well. I'm just returning to SP after a 4-year absence. Have fun on your rime off!
    106 days ago
  • SAPHRAEL
    Hey there, Steph. Once again, I am in Sparkpeople's orbit and am logging in more frequently. I scanned my friends list to see who else is still around and was happy to see you're still here. It's difficult to remain consistent when different things are going on in your life.

    I wish you all the best. Hopefully, the mystery illness disappears and let's you get on and focus on more important things.

    130 days ago
  • HMBROWN1
    Glad that you are doing well! I know what you mean, it is so easy to put the weight back on and "get comfortable" with the higher numbers. Best wishes!
    154 days ago
  • DESERTDREAMERS
    I totally understand the acceptance of a higher weight range. There’s a quote about being happy to get back to the weight I wanted to lose weight at. (My coffee hasn’t kicked in yet, so I don’t know if I’m making sense.)
    157 days ago
  • DOG_MOM
    I hear you on letting a weight range become, not comfortable, but habitual. I'm finally out of the 220's, but it took me 4 months to do it. And over the past 3 years of effort, that was my stopping point before a regain. I'm finally through them and congrats on getting out of the 230's for you as well. A 3 lb loss is a loss. Congrats on breaking the 230 barrier.
    157 days ago
  • DEBSZOO74
    I’m happy to see another blog from you, Steph! You’re making progress, so keep up the good work. Have fun and safe travels while being Luke’s #1 stalker! emoticon emoticon
    157 days ago
  • IDICEM
    You've made progress this year and that's great! Keep up the work and don't let the pace discourage you. Slower loss can be easier to maintain. Keep up the good work and hang on to that brother of yours! Having a cheerleader in your corner is wonderful. Enjoy your Days of Luke!
    159 days ago
  • DEBVNE
    Slow and steady, sweet girl...that’s what counts. Your brother is a doll to support you...his push is probably in hope that this will spark something inside of you. Don’t let it overwhelm you, yet if ya picture a mini him on your shoulder while road tripping, it might guide you to make healthier choices. Ask me how I know...hahaha.

    Mobility issues are legit. One HUGE contributing factor...our weight! No judgment, I’ve lived it. Prior to knee replacements, I weighed 75 pounds more than I do now. Hard to lose when you can’t really move, or fall when you move. Weighing less takes pressure off joints, so each pound matters. Honestly, our joints are happier with us when we move, one PT told me that motion is the lotion. Ooooh, yet true. I’ve also found that exercise is a pivotal piece. A strong core makes an enormous difference in moving. Muscle is a fat furnace, I’ve changed the most by incorporating and embracing strength work. Hello, body weight my fav...travels well too. Ha. There are limitless low impact options, search YouTube. If ya want suggestions...

    Happy Road trip. Safe travels, have the BEST time. Blast the song, Road Tripping, by Dan and Shay when ya hit the road. It’s become part of our family’s tradition. By the way, yesterday I logged 1500 days on SparkPeople. My first real interest was you, writing a response to one of your blogs. I’m not the same chica I was then...faster, braver, stronger, leaner...healthier. Thanks for being my spark...no words!
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    159 days ago
  • AQUAGIRL08
    I always love reading your blogs! In fact, I was just thinking about you the other day. I was looking at something having to do with Luke Bryan of course! I admire your desire to do as much as you can while you can. Keeping active actually helps one feel better and encourages a better level of activity in the long run. So...go you! Good job!
    159 days ago
  • MCFITZ2
    Progress is progress. fast or slow it counts. Enjoy the concerts.
    159 days ago
  • L*I*T*A*
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    159 days ago
  • BEATLETOT
    Your blogs are so fun. Of course you think they're boring. It's different to read versus experience, so for us, we have mouths agape at all the fun stuff you do, because this is the only way we can know it, but you get to see it, hear it, smell it, touch it...

    I hope you'll indulge us more often.

    *Sigh* I'm with you on the weight loss stuff, though. I think I need to read Beck again, but I'm already reading so many OTHER things, for the first time!

    159 days ago
  • SUSIEMT
    You lead an interesting life in that you are living it right now! Doing what you really desire. Even if you are stalking Luke. :)
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    159 days ago
  • EO4WELLNESS
    It is SO wonderful to hear from you!

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    159 days ago
  • WHYTEBROWN
    I know how awful regain and "re-losing" can feel but try to generate that same excitement with each pound lost. You may not be progressing as quickly as you think you should but you're going in the right direction and that's what matters! emoticon emoticon
    159 days ago
  • AKPIPER
    emoticon Glad to see your doing awesome things. I'm in the same boat as you with the weight loss. I was loosing and regaining the same 5-7 lbs for months. Keep doin you and have a awesome and safe trip. - angel emoticon
    159 days ago
  • BRENNAN_ARMACOS
    I know it feels like you aren't doing anything interesting because you can't exercise very much. Yet, I think this fangirl stuff is totally fascinating, and I wish you would tell us all the details! Most people never get the chance to follow around their favorite band or singer. It sounds like so much fun!

    Your brother may be your biggest supporter, but don't let his comments take away from your feelings of acheivement at losing three pounds. I would love to lose three pounds in a month! It took me at least three months to lose one pound. Just be glad, whatever you lose, because you are losing! You are doing something right, not to be standing still or gaining.

    P.S. Is the metal plate and screw bothering you? Because if it's not, you don't have to feel "less than" because of it. Just accept it for what it is, a new part of you, like a scar. It's helpful, and it keeps you held together. It's something to be thankful for!

    You might, though, possibly be allergic to your surgical implant:
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    159 days ago
  • SHOAPIE
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    160 days ago
  • KENDRACARROLL
    Sounds like it's gonna be a great road trip. With a cherry on top every night :)
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    160 days ago
  • NASFKAB
    All the best. Kudos on losing some weight. Do keep it up.
    160 days ago
  • LINDAK25
    Come on your weight loss. Have a wonderful time at the concerts!
    160 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    It may not be how you want it to be, but you ARE making progress. Even more importantly, you are living life on your terms. 4 Luke Bryant concerts! Wonderful. THAT'S the stuff life is all about. . . . doing what makes your heart sing.
    160 days ago
  • PENOWOK
    I think it's terrific that you have your brother as a supporter in this journey! Sounds as though he's very much an accountability partner for you! Good guy, for sure! I agree that it's so important to be able to do the things you love while you are physically able! We take care of two grandsons, but some days I wonder how much longer I'll be able to keep up that pace! They keep me VERY busy!
    160 days ago
  • EISSA7
    You are living your life in the present and doing what brings you happiness AND that is awesome....But, you also have your future self and well-being in focus. Please continue to make choices that support your goal of mobility .... I cannot tell you how many of my friends use canes, walkers etc. due to decades of obesity AND they are not THAT old!! Have a blast on your 4 day Luke concert trek!
    160 days ago
  • SNOOPYLINKOS
    Slow but sure, positive attitude shining through!
    160 days ago
  • JCMSMILE
    I love your blogs!! I am glad to see that you are still traveling, still "seeing " Luke, and doing your best to live a healthy life. ..you are emoticon
    160 days ago
  • MARYBETH4884
    You are doing something, and moving in the right direction!! You have to celebrate these small successes, when you have seen a month pass with no loss or worse a gain. (that's where I'm at now) Enjoying your mobility means you are using it and not feeling sorry and giving up. Enjoy your Luke fest!!!
    160 days ago
  • SNUZYQ2
    Not boring at all, Steph. We ladies usually do not lose weight like the fellas. We're a lot slower at this. So don't let that get you down! Our chances of keeping our weight off increase the more slowly we do this...I'm taking off about a pound or less per week - but you know what...the weight is headed in the right direction and that's all that counts. Congratulations on your weight loss!! Keep up the good work. You are totally worth being at a healthy weight and this will happen for us - one day at a time - one meal at a time. Fifty pounds ago, I had lots of unexplained swellings and had to wear support socks for circulation and pain relief. That's all in the past now. Obesity is truly our enemy. Take care of yourself on your trip and have a great time! emoticon
    160 days ago
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