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My new method for dealing with anxiety.

Friday, August 23, 2019

I have anxiety and depression. Somedays, I am anxiety. Somedays anxiety eats up my entire day and I get nothing done, which makes my anxiety worse.

There are a lot of things going on in our lives right now that explain the level of anxiety I am facing currently, but I have come to the realization quite recently that I have been affected by anxiety my whole life. I have developed some pretty extensive coping mechanisms to deal with it. I take two different meds to deal with the anxiety and depression, but about 2 months ago I came to the realization that I needed more help. So I did what I swore I would never do, and I sought out counseling.

It is helping. Way more than I ever thought. I have a long way to go, but I am already seeing small changes in the way I deal with things and think about things.

One thing that was suggested to me was when I feel over-run with anxious thoughts, or voices that are telling me I am not good enough, or that everything is all my fault, or I should be over that already, is to do some form of exercising. So I have taken to setting a timer for 10 minutes and I just walk in my house. Back and forth, and back and forth - sometimes reading a book on my kindle, sometimes swinging my arms, anything to get my heart beating and my mind distracted.

Today a new element was added to my anxiety fighting arsenal. As I was starting a walk, our cat Beatrice got in my way and meowed at me. I walked past her and on my way back she did it again so I scooped her up in my arms and walked a few steps with her. I figured she would want to get down IMMEDIATELY but instead, she nestled in, with her chin on my shoulder and started purring. I started laughing, and she stayed where she was until I was done with my 10 minutes of walking. When I put her down, she just stared at me for a moment, flicked her tail, and then walked away. I could almost hear her saying, "I got you!"

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  • PCOH051610
    That is awesome! Thank you for sharing your new way to cope as I think I will give it a go as well.
    466 days ago
  • JIBBIE49
    My brother who is 66 had his first panic attack in 1975. He's been on medication since and had several hospital stays, but he did work 25 yrs in the coal mine. Problem he has is using alcohol to "calm his nerves." (He's a Gemini and Gemini rules the nerves.) But, he never stayed with counseling as he'd get in an argument with the counselor, etc. He really seemed to love to talk about his illness, and I've always said that if he didn't have it, he'd have had to get up and DO something. It has always been a great "excuse" to not go somewhere that his wife wants to go, but then he cab turn around and go with some male friend to whatever event that guy wants to do. (Thankfully, his wife is independent and goes with her many gfs.) I had depression, too, and took Prozac for 14 yrs and it just made me feel "normal" and not like I was down in a hole. Our mother had depression, since her first husband was murdered and she came to work for our father as a housekeeper since his wife had died from diabetes. She had a little girl who died from spinal meningitis and so she was overly protective of us and made my brother afraid of trying anything. I just did what I wanted when I got away from her, since I realized why she was so negative.
    I'm glad you are in counseling. You really have to learn "self-talk" and respond back to the illness.

    510 days ago
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