My new method for dealing with anxiety.
Friday, August 23, 2019
I have anxiety and depression. Somedays, I am anxiety. Somedays anxiety eats up my entire day and I get nothing done, which makes my anxiety worse.
There are a lot of things going on in our lives right now that explain the level of anxiety I am facing currently, but I have come to the realization quite recently that I have been affected by anxiety my whole life. I have developed some pretty extensive coping mechanisms to deal with it. I take two different meds to deal with the anxiety and depression, but about 2 months ago I came to the realization that I needed more help. So I did what I swore I would never do, and I sought out counseling.
It is helping. Way more than I ever thought. I have a long way to go, but I am already seeing small changes in the way I deal with things and think about things.
One thing that was suggested to me was when I feel over-run with anxious thoughts, or voices that are telling me I am not good enough, or that everything is all my fault, or I should be over that already, is to do some form of exercising. So I have taken to setting a timer for 10 minutes and I just walk in my house. Back and forth, and back and forth - sometimes reading a book on my kindle, sometimes swinging my arms, anything to get my heart beating and my mind distracted.
Today a new element was added to my anxiety fighting arsenal. As I was starting a walk, our cat Beatrice got in my way and meowed at me. I walked past her and on my way back she did it again so I scooped her up in my arms and walked a few steps with her. I figured she would want to get down IMMEDIATELY but instead, she nestled in, with her chin on my shoulder and started purring. I started laughing, and she stayed where she was until I was done with my 10 minutes of walking. When I put her down, she just stared at me for a moment, flicked her tail, and then walked away. I could almost hear her saying, "I got you!"