The other day while writing in my journal, I thought of an acronym that went with doubt, one of the biggest aspects that hinders my growth spiritually and emotionally.
Driving - Doubt and many of its bffs like fear and anxiety are driving. They motivate us to fight whatever we feel is our fight at the time. They drive us to do what's necessary to win, whether good, bad, or anywhere in between.
Obsessive - When we, humans get it into our minds that we're gonna win, well, that's all there is to it. My family can testify with a resounding 'Yes!' that if I get my head running in a certain direction, it's not coming back. :) But, unfortunately, it can be dangerous when winning becomes more important than priorities, responsibilities, and even family/friends.
The mind becomes clouded and becomes single-focused, which can be great and can be quite harmful.
Uncertainty - Insecurity, confusion, hesitancy...all leading back to doubt, which is uncertainty. 'Will I get this job?' 'Can I complete this in time?' 'I can't bear it if he/she leaves me.' 'How will my children ever survive in this world?'
Battling - Humans like to deny anything's wrong, but truly this IS A BATTLE. We're often fighting for something that's not that important or necessary, but often we are. And on either side of this, it is a battle and it plagues us til it is ceased.
Truth - For me, doubt rears it's head in identity. What I see in myself is unworthy, right on the edge of overweight, undefined, unattractive, pimple-scarred, moody, friendless, frightened, small, unnoticed, but in reality, I am doubting and flat-out refusing God's declaration of me. IN HIM, we are all of the below and more.
BEAUTIFUL (or handsome :D )
SONS AND DAUGHTERS OF THE KING
So if our doubt disagrees with God, throw it out. Right now.
Yes, we are imperfect, scarred, wounded, messy, and broken. But the Creator made us and He should know who we truly are - because He does.