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Finding me

Sunday, September 15, 2019

I think part of the issues I have lately stem from old guilt. As if there is something wrong with me taking this much time to work on myself, to take care of myself.
Old ideas that mom doesn't deserve time to herself, to exercise to meditate, to just be and enjoy a quiet shower.
I suppose I think I thought I would be done losing weight by now and that is part of it. I didn't realize how long losing 120 pounds would actually take, really how could I know a time frame having never done it before.
But really, would it matter if I was at goal weight already? Even then shouldn't I continue to take the time for myself to reach for my goals? To go for my dreams? Dreams long since left behind when I married and became a mother.
My biggest regrets are that I let marriage and motherhood snuff out me. I lost myself. 😢
This is me finding myself again. emoticon
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    128 days ago
  • LEARN211
    Sometimes old stuff comes up and it catches us off guard. It is good to journal or blog to work through those moments otherwise it holds us back in the long run.
    128 days ago
    Oh my this blog spoke to my heart. Thank you. I found I have lost myself so much that I don’t even know how to find my old self back. But that’s ok. I’m looking for the new me. I’m getting over feeling guilty. I need this & family can see that now.
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