Sunday, September 15, 2019
I think part of the issues I have lately stem from old guilt. As if there is something wrong with me taking this much time to work on myself, to take care of myself.
Old ideas that mom doesn't deserve time to herself, to exercise to meditate, to just be and enjoy a quiet shower.
I suppose I think I thought I would be done losing weight by now and that is part of it. I didn't realize how long losing 120 pounds would actually take, really how could I know a time frame having never done it before.
But really, would it matter if I was at goal weight already? Even then shouldn't I continue to take the time for myself to reach for my goals? To go for my dreams? Dreams long since left behind when I married and became a mother.
My biggest regrets are that I let marriage and motherhood snuff out me. I lost myself. 😢
This is me finding myself again.