Fear

I am afraid to weigh in. I know I’m only supposed to do it once a week. That won’t be until Thursday. So I have a some time to get prepared. I just don’t want to see that I have not lost anything. I did weigh over the weekend and I’d dropped a couple of pounds, which made me happy. But...I feel sluggish and, well, heavy. I’m doing my best to move and follow the tips and recommendations here. I am so appreciative of the kind support from fellow members. Still, my fear is holding me back. Fear of the number on the scale, of another relapse, of more pain when exercising, of the whole mess. Like it’s questionable whether it will prove to be worth it all, even though I know it will be. Heck, I’ve done it more than once. Maybe that’s why I’m so afraid. I’ve obviously failed more than once, too.