Life Changes Entering Fall
Thursday, September 26, 2019
I have recently been giving my life much in depth thought over various years and challenges and obstacles. When I was a child I believe now that I was a normal weight in a sense based on the diet we had and two thirds of that diet was based on vegetables from the garden we grew each year. One of my early goals for next year is to try and live a more sustainable life for myself. Which has led me to do a lot of research on YouTube and which I will continue to do over the fall and winter as well. God has saw fit to make me a very curious person with many different interests in all things and I need to listen to that more and fulfill more of those things in my life.
I was not successful in many area’s of my life and I will shoulder some of the blame of that. When you are young you think you will get married, have a life together and grow with each other..That is not always the case and I say that because I am divorced and have been divorced for over 10 years. BUT that being said that painful event changed me and gave me a clearer perspective on life. I recently saw a quote about not relying on someone else for your happiness and that is absolutely true. In the years I was single after my divorce I relied upon myself and got to know who I really am inside and out and if I encountered things I didn’t like I worked on changing those things.
Who I am now is a person on an exploratory mission of faith and learning about God and the bible and how it relates to, and how I can apply it to my life. Yes I believe in God ,and have faith and prayer but I am also a person too. I truly believe God works in us to make us different for a reason. In me he has made me a creative and curious person with a great desire to learn and be interested in many things and cultures. I see that as a good thing, I used to feel guilty that I didn’t have just one focus in life, but many.
The same applies to where I am in my fitness journey, I have been temporarily de-railed many times but in those times of very harsh challenges and obstacles I have not given up. I have a long list of medical conditions that I don’t care to string out at the moment but, the challenge was to OVERCOME. Right now my focus and plan is to focus on one area of my life at a time and that is walking and building on that until I am confident in that area to move onto something else, such as lifting weights again or being more aggressive with working out. I seem to always have a 50 pounds loss behind me but never able to say a 60 pound loss…YET and I need to find out why and examine some area’s of my life and nutrition that are giving me issues.
Which leads me to my biggest obstacle and challenge in my weightloss which is nutrition. I am from Appalachia and that being said if you are POOR and have a very meager food budget that means one great big thing….you rely on CARBS for a big staple in your diet. So I have to try going forward to be more strategic about meal planning so I do not have a million carbs planned for the week I am working on. Then we get into another obstacle on when you do calorie deficit and that’s hunger. Last year when I started my weightloss journey I was hungry about 70% of the time and I tried everything to not feel that way but I think maybe there is a lesson in that as well. When your used to eating everything you want and then stop suddenly your body is crying out for that food. You have to become used to that feeling