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Step back, you got this

Sunday, October 13, 2019


My last race made me do some thinking. It was an extreme race that I signed up for due to peer pressure and ego pressure. I was so determined to get back to who I was I forgot how many steps it took me to get there. I wanted to restart my running game at the top of the food chain, cause after 2 years of no real running that's where you should start. Next week I have a 12KM race, I can do it, I know I can but I also know I would be walking at least half of it and that isn't how I like to do races.

I talked to my daughter. She told me I was doing the right thing and reminded me how much happier I would be to run the whole race instead of limping along the last part of the original one. She really made me feel good about my choice.

We do this, or maybe it's just me but when we get our act together we expect...again me...that we can carry on where we left off. Today I got a huge reminder that this is not the case. I introduced the twins to rock climbing. My daughter wanted a mommy and me day (I love that she still wants these) and I suggested we take the girls to the gym I used to go to ALL.THE.TIME. I got my workout gear on, was so excited to go.

The girls loved it. At the end of the session I asked them which climbs they liked the best, they both yelled with excitement, "All of them!"

Me on the other hand, oh boy. I couldn't even make it up the beginner climb. I made it half way. I looked at all the difficult walls I had conquered and remembered how excited I was each time. I tried climbing the wall again, nope, half way it was.

This really sealed my thoughts on my race. I've gotten my eating back in place. I'm losing weight but I'm still literally trying to run before I can walk. I want to go back to the climbing gym in a couple of days on one of their quieter nights and restart. I was so embarrassed that I couldn't climb like I used to, but if I don't go back and keep trying I will never be able to climb it and that is something I can't accept. For Christmas I want to get the girls a 10 session pass and I want to be able to climb with them, not just watch.

Stepping back and accepting that I need to restart my exercise is so liberating and it's a little exciting. I'm looking forward to conquering the races and climbs again.

I absolutely love these photos of the girls and how great my daughter is looking! (dark pony tail)




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  • KAYOTIC
    We do need to start where we are NOW, not some past "self" we long to become again...thanks for a good reminder! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    25 days ago
  • CONTROUBLE
    Good for you!
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    27 days ago
  • DEEGIRL50
    Glad you took a step back to evaluate where you are today and where you want to head. You and your daughter are such good examples for those little girls. I expect to see the twins on American Ninja Warrior some day.
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    28 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/14/2019 9:07:54 PM
  • FRUITYFUL
    Oh my gosh, their getting so big and they're so dang cute! Good job getting your eating and weight loss on track. The exercise will get there. It was hard for me to when I started back. I just wanted to walk all over and ride my bike every day, but I quickly pushed myself too far and realized I had to chill out and start small. It was really just a process of starting over and making improvements, slowly getting stronger. It's been great! You've got this!
    29 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    Those 2 angels are amazing and your DD looks fantastic!

    HUGS and good for you that you're going at the pace that's right for you.
    29 days ago
  • JRDUPREE
    You had a great day with the granddaughters and learned a life lesson also ~ you cannot start at the top. Good news is you are not starting at the bottom either you are halfway there! You have motivation in your words ~ you will conquer the wall and the run!

    29 days ago
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