Oh wow it has been four days since I blogged. The weekend was a rough one. Went off the rails yesterday afternoon with food. Got benched with activity after Friday because of a unknown leg injury. I did, not listen to my body, and go on a 2 mile walk with lots of up hill parts. Same as I did the day before when I believe I hurt myself. It is a weird injury. I almost got home and felt something, not sure what but knew it wasn't normal and probably wasn't good. It was below my hip joint but not my thigh either. Difficult location to describe. The feeling was real deep too. I ignored it and finished the Friday walk. Saturday, determined, I went on the same walk. I pushed through the uncomfortable feelings I was having in my leg. By that night I was hurting. Bad. About a 9 out of a 10 in pain. I considered going to the doctor but man have I had too many times be told- oh we know there is something going on but don't know what it is or how to help you. So instead of paying money to be told that again, I sucked it up. Sunday we had a baptism. I was to wear a dress and heals that I had planned to wear as a reward for losing all this weight. No one was going to take that away. I woke up Sunday in even more pain. I took a pain killer that had been prescribed for my back pain and got through the day. I had to take one more last night. I think I fell asleep around 8 pm with my husband rubbing my foot and leg in hopes to help that upper area that I hurt. When I woke up today, it was so much better. Not gone, but much more manageable. Maybe a 3 out of 10, so much better. It is sore. The best way I could describe it to my husband it felt like maybe the muscle ripped from the bone or something. Today, I listened to my body. I slept a lot. I needed it badly. My mind feels much more clear and alert, my leg is still feeling better than it was. My goal with that is to get the leg better so I can make it to the gym when I am supposed to go.
I stepped on the scale at some point this weekend, can't recall when. I weighed 179 even. So down another 2 ounces. Yay!
Stopped at Starbucks yesterday evening. No one was in there so we decided to sit and enjoy some time alone to decompress. We intended to go in for an americana and maybe share a muffin. Just as a treat. But ended up (this is 2 people) I got a large white chocolate mocha, he got a pumpkin spice cream cold brew in Xtra large, a pumpkin scone, pumpkin bread, chocolate chip cookie. Ugh oh. messed up. Ate that. Still sitting in there, we decided we needed to think about supper for the two of us. Went and ordered xtra large ice water, 2 grilled cheeses, 2 chocolate chip cookies and two bags of pop corn. Ugh oh....did it again. I am convinced it was a food release for what we had gone through that day. He told me thank you for being so patient. And he never says stuff like that to me. So he must have felt the stress just as bad.
We talked about just fasting today. Like a 24 hour fast. This morning my blood sugar number fasting was 333. WAY TOO HIGH. But that is the reason I eat and do the intermittent fasting. To keep my numbers low in the normal person range. So I just drank my allowed liquids for today so far. Nothing else. I listened to my body and gave it rest. I tested my blood a little bit ago. It was 96. WHEWWWW! That was such a happy feeling. I was worried it would take me days to get back down. Maybe I can get back on track today and everything will be ok.
My best friend insists on taking me to the Cheese cake factory for my birthday in December when I go visit her. I tried to get out of it because that has temptation all over it! I guess I have a couple months to look over the menu and stuff and find things I can have. And convince myself one treat or two wont be horrible if I know I will stop there. Which I have gotten very good. Yesterday I believe was the first slip since June.
This week, my best friend are going to make chaffle whoppers, and chaffle pizzas and maybe strawberry fat bombs. That last one I am not sure about yet. I might make chilli on my own too.
Well have teacher meetings tonight to help my son stop getting Fs. We all need to sit together and figure some stuff out. Hope it works!